It's coming back

[RunGirl]

Hi....this is my first post. I've always fought the black dog. Recently I beat a plethora hurdles and bad situations.....near death experience, two months in hospital, 7 surgeries, prescription pill addiction, isolation living overseas, increasingly abusive relationship, PTSD. I RAN, I resettled in Aus, i got work, I found myself in love again...I was happy and energetic. But It's coming back. I read somewhere when you don't want to get out of bed, you know you're getting bad again. I have a beautiful new partner. I'm just so tired all the time. I've put on weight which he likes but I can't forget the words of disgust from my ex when I wasn't stick thin. I need some perspective and support guys

[RunGirl]

Not great, sorry to say. I have some critical medical issues stemming from the septic shock. a lot of anxiety and guilt and financial issues and others with my ex. He's sooo good at pushing buttons. SOLDIER ON!!!! Thanks for thinking of me xx

RG

[Croix]

Dear RG~

OK, I'm sorry to hear you are having more hassles the moment. Over you conversations I've noticed you have a literate inquiring and lively mind. Are you using this excellent tool to help give you distraction and hopefully a little enjoyment.

When really down it is hard to start doing such things, I guess the unhappiness and anxiety tend to foster inertia - at least for me. Then they go out of the mind and there seems to be nothing, which is why I'm reminding you, in case you are like me.

Croix

[RunGirl]

Croix, you nailed it. I'm gonna try. Out of all the things I can and like to do, drawing my two penguin characters that I created is the one I think I can do now. They don't take much thinking,they practically draw themselves. They are travelling the world and I haven't seen them for quite a while.....I think they may have gone to the Winter Olympics....:-)

[Croix]

Dear RG~

I'm pleased, and I suspect anyone who says they practically draw themselves is very able artistically. At one stage I was encouraged to draw an incident from my past in order to come to grips with it - sadly stick figures did not cut the mustard:(

Croix

[BballJ]

Hi RunGirl,

I am sorry to hear things are not going well. I can only say I hope things get better for you and start coming up and you start feeling better.

My best,

Jay

[RunGirl]

Hi Croix,

Just to confirm....The two Penguins ARE at the Olympics, because I saw a drawing of Errol (the large one) doing the luge on the Google Doodle. They didn't quite get him right....even though I could tell it was Errol, I may just have to let him come out of my own pen, to get his performance shot perfect. I suspect Flynn was coaching as he's smaller and more of an Ideas Man. My depression is back to black, so to speak, so this might help me.

[RunGirl]

Croix,

I'm totally different to you artistically. I am very capable. However, stick figures are just as useful in the Psychological process. They just have to represent. Bro. (Sorry I had to add the "bro" because of the word REPRESENT!!!!) I myself had a great experience with art therapy and as a qualified facilitator of applied drama, I am now considering doing the necessary study to become a drama therapist. But you know...to each his own. However i know enough about Piaget, Freud, etc to know that drama therapy doesn't have to be "dramatic" it can work even for the most staid company CEO if the practitioner is intuitive

[Croix]

Dear RungGirl~

I'm sorry about the back to black.

I blush to admit it, however the reference to 'represent.bro' completely escapes me. I can grok bro-ship, but that's as far as it goes:(

Can you do some of the study conveniently, or would it be a big production? I forget, I may have mentioned it before, I studied drama for a while and was pronounced an excellent lighting technician as a result, as you say chacun à son goût

Croix

No those stick figures did not represent, they were an irrelevance, maybe as you suggest the therapist was non-intuitive, then again maybe I was simply frightened to explore.

[RunGirl]

"represent" started as an African american phrase meaning "Show yourself for who you are (and what you represent)" The Bro (brother) thing is just another AfA phrase that has been tagged along with it.

[RunGirl]

Guys, I'm taking a nosedive. I had a completely unexpected and quite vicious (on their part) conflict with my parents....I just rang for a friendly chat. I was blindsided by it all. I kept calm and got out of the cal asap but got a very vitriolic, almost insane email from my mother two days later.

Crashing badly now. Help?

RunGirl