It's been 2 years now that i have been seeing doctors near weekly and still my mind is clouded with the question "Why?" Why go on, why bother, life is just too hard, i keep thinking of how to end it, the anti depressants i just came off had me curled up in bed 20 hours a day grinding my teeth and petrified to got out, even now I am off them, i feel it's all pointless.
I'm sorry, I had not realized. It's a double blow to have both the funds and the satisfaction of working out of reach.
Is there much you can do to keep yourself occupied and distracted at the moment?
I've found it hard with poor concentration and a racing mind at times, but basically tried to read, something that has become a lot easier over time. Now it gives me an escape and I look forward to it.
