I just don't know anymore

[chrissy1]

I have been reading many threads, which makes me feel not so alone. I've had depression for 30 yrs. the last 5yrs have been chronic, that's why I'm in a nursing home.( no where else to go) I could not look after myself anymore. I have lost (commission unit)my unit my car and my baby dog. After many shock treatments, I am on medication which is keeping stable. I just don't have a life anymore. So alone. (Have lost my friends as I was out of action. I'm sure u guys can relate. I struggle with society that they just don't get it, what do we have to do to let them know this is REAL.( as if one could pretend with this illness) I don't think so!!! I really don't have a life

anymore. Being in a nursing home does not help cause when I leave my room I see so many older people around. It does not help my depression at all. That's all for now.thank you for ur time, looking forward to some replies.

my thread name is chrissy1 which some of you may have seen.

chrissy1

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Chrissy,

Im so really sorry your not in a good state,

Thank you for reading my thread on ground and it means a lot hopefully it can help you if you need it. Making a grounding box would be something that you could do to keep busy just get an old shoebox decorated all painted make it look lovely and then if you go outside for a walk just have a look around and anything that is interesting that you like just pop it inside your grounding box

Has your daughter been to take you out to the shops or for an outing for dinner or something.does your daughter bring your grandchildren over to To see you on the weekend I'm just curious.

I have been asked to join a darts team, which will practice every Monday for about four hours from 10 o'clock in the morning, that will give me something to do ,I used to play darts many years ago and enjoyed it I am just a bit frightened to go out because I haven't been out anywhere for awhile.

I saw you around the forums congratulations on doing that and I also saw that you were supporting somebody trying to help them once again well done. Sometimes if your help and support a person on their thread they will come and visit you and support you as well it works two ways it's a good way you might meet somebody.

Chrissy to stop all the bad thoughts you have to try to be proactive, when a bad thought starts, you have to try to do something to distract your thoughts, you have to try to stop yourself from going to far down and getting so sad, for an example when your daughter come to visit you you're happy you don't have bad thoughts because you're been distracted by doing something that you like, we have to try and find something for you to do like this when your daughter is not visiting you. it's gonna be hard but you gonna have to try to find what it is you like to do for a hobby or interest.

I have been watching the Winter Olympics and I have enjoyed some of them that again is just something to do, we have a thread that's called loneliness what are the choices they have a lot of good Ideas on that thread I'm not sure maybe it could help you it's worth a look at. Sometimes I will spend 3-4 hours just reading through these threads and sometimes join in the conversation it's my main distraction of a night.

Gentle and kind thoughts only,

Karen

[chrissy1]

Hi Karen

i can't find the thread "lonleyness".

Take care

chrissy1

[Ggrand]

Hello Chrissy,

I hope you are doing well,m

Loneliness what are our choices. Up the top right corner type loneliness what are our choices then search, it will come up..

How have you been. It's been really hot out in the central west,i really cannot wait until the cooler weather to come.

look after yourself, I hope you find the thread. It gives suggestions for different clubs, and different hobbies, interests etc. I hope you find it interesting.

Karen

[Bigblue]

Hi Chrissy

I finally found your thread. How are you?

BB

[chrissy1]

Hi BB

nice to hear from you what have u been up ? I'm sick of feeling this

take care

chrissy1

[Guest_4]

I feel like being in a nursing home. That way, I can be someone else's responsibility instead of my own. There was no point in me being born.

[chrissy1]

Hi unknownuser,

i need to ask do u have any support? How long have u been feeling like this, also are u on medication. I ask these as I do know they help. Look forward to hearing from you.

take care

chrissy1

[Ggrand]

Hello Chrissy and everyone else.

I hope you don't mind I am just calling in to see how you are doing.

Did you go out with your daughter and get your nails done.

I hope you are doing okay. Did you find the thread loneliness?..

kind thoughts,

Karen.

[chrissy1]

Hello Karen

i saw u on another thread and ur not doing so well. What u said I can really relate too.im not much better. I have just found out I have osteoporosis in my right hand, I have bone on bone u don't realise how much u use ur right hand, another thing I have to live. Are u feeling better, abit better,hopefully u are.

Take care x

chrissy1

[Ggrand]

Hello Chrissy,

No I'm not doing to well at well, the beast (depression) has a really strong hold of me atm, but I'll be okay..

Im really sorry about osteoporosis, I've heard a little about it but not much, I will research a little later on about it, so I can help to support you with it. It's uncanny isn't it the way we take things for granted until something goes wrong. With my iPad there is a microphone that I can talk into instead of typing but I can't use it properly, harder to talk for me then to type.

Im sorry that your feeling down, did something set you back or did the sadness just creep up on you. Do you have coping strategies in place for when your thoughts go the wrong way, I'm just going to watch tv today I think, maybe a DVD something I like. If it rains I'll sit outside and watch it. you said before you have a nice view of outside, that's nice for you to look out.

Hows your daughter and grand daughter going? Have you seen them recently?

Kindness only,

Karen