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I just don't know anymore
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I have been reading many threads, which makes me feel not so alone. I've had depression for 30 yrs. the last 5yrs have been chronic, that's why I'm in a nursing home.( no where else to go) I could not look after myself anymore. I have lost (commission unit)my unit my car and my baby dog. After many shock treatments, I am on medication which is keeping stable. I just don't have a life anymore. So alone. (Have lost my friends as I was out of action. I'm sure u guys can relate. I struggle with society that they just don't get it, what do we have to do to let them know this is REAL.( as if one could pretend with this illness) I don't think so!!! I really don't have a life
anymore. Being in a nursing home does not help cause when I leave my room I see so many older people around. It does not help my depression at all. That's all for now.thank you for ur time, looking forward to some replies.
my thread name is chrissy1 which some of you may have seen.
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Hello Chrissy,
I want to thank you for coming in to visit me when I was such a broken mess earlier this week, your kind words help to pull me out and into a better mindset...I love the sound of hot pink nails...You have great colour selections, each month.
Birdy has some great ideas for you.. a beautiful post... I know you said earlier that you don't go on these trips, but Please Chrissy can you consider it again..as well as playing bingo, and other games with the other residence ...Do you still sit in the little garden you have their, I could imagine the little birds love that area and they sing a lot... or is it getting a little cold....
The weather where I live in central nsw is very cold today, with snow not far away, but I do enjoy the cold air on my face, it makes me feel like I'm here in the present brings me to the surface ( if you know what I mean)..
Ive decided that I need to vacumn my home today..So I'm off to do that now...I hope your days a good day.
kind thoughts, Caring hug 🤗.
Grandy..
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Hello,
pressed wrong button, did u get my thread? I’m upset., cause I pressed wrong button.
take care❤️
chrissy1
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Hi Karen
hows things going. Hopefully u are abit better. I have been wondering how about we say a number out of 10 how we feel. Ten being bad, like now I’m about 7. What do u think?
Im really sorry I can’t bring myself, to share with residence. It just makes me feel worse. I do hope u understand.
yes it is getting colder, it makes me want to stay in bed more, which is not good I know, but what is there to get up for??? It’s not easy when u don’t have any motivation. I’m so pleased that I have made some really nice friends, it helps a lot.
Take care 💕
chrissy1
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Hello Chrissy,
I think the number system is a good idea, although I'm a bit concerned that your at a 7, I hope you feel better soon..
Thats okay hun, you don't have to do anything you don't want to do...Just relax and do what you can to keep you as happy as you can...
Im doing nothing much at the moment, I'm trying to start knitting but finding it hard to start casting on..The weather is cold with occasional sleet making it colder...I alway take a bottle of water with me when I sleep, this morning when I had a drink it felt like it came out of the freezer,mit must have been a cold night...
I would put me at around an 8 at the moment...Last week when I was triggered and went down quickly I would have said 10.. but I'm getting better daily now..I'm slowly climbing up and will a 1 before we know it..😁..
Are their many birds out your way. We have had a little bit of rain.4 mills and the dirt life here is overflowing as there comin in for some water and maybe some grass seeds . The cockatoo look brilliant when they fly over in flocks that look like around 50 or so..but wow they are noisey..
Enjoy your day Chrissy, 🌹..a little Rose to brighten up your day, sent with love💜..
Grandy.
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Hello
Im going to write anyway. Thank you so much for sharing ur story. Just wondering do u work? I haven’t for 25 yrs, because of my depression, tried so many times over the years. Over the years I have had too many losses. Did u get ur vacumning done?
take care 💕
chrissy1
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Sorry last post was to Stormcloudz
thank you
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Hi Chrissy
Nice to hear from you. I sometimes press the wrong button and lose a post too, it's annoying, isn't it?
Yes, I do work. But I understand why sometimes we can't, because I had to take quite a long break at one point, and I have friends who can't work at all and haven't for decades. Personally I think health is more important than work, we all just do what we can at various stages of life. I used to be a real Type A ambitious person and that's part of what brought me undone - I was so busy working so hard and thought it was the right thing to do - now I realize I was just making money for other people and avoiding my own issues. Ah well, we live and learn. These days I have a more balanced view of life : )
I had a crappy morning for some reason but am OK tonight. I got nothing done this morning, but this evening some housework got sorted, thanks for asking : ) I'm sorry you and Grandy are up around the 7s and 8s at the moment. I hope you can at least get some rest and comfort from being cosy inside while it's so cold out.
Like Grandy, I like watching the birds. I also have a large flock of enormous sulphur-crested cockatoos that visit, screeching and squawking and hanging upside down from the power lines. I love them even though they are so noisy - they are like a big bunch of naughty but funny kids.
What can you see out your window? Is it people or nature?
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Hello stormcloudz
how are u doing. I’m not up too much, as per usual. So nice to hear from u. You said u do work which is great. Try to stay as long as u can, as the days are long and sad, it’s so hard, especially when ur on ur own. Have u been up too much? Did u do anything on long weekend?
Hello Birdy how are u going? Miss u.
take care💕
chrissy1
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Hello Karen
so nice to hear from you. Did u make it to darts and op shop I know how hard it is. Don’t beat ur self up ok. Just another day not doing much at all. Yeah the cockatoos are so noisy.
sorry not much to say.
take care💕
chrissy1