I can't find the right place for me to post

[Moonstruck]

I don't know any more where to put a new thread if I make one, or which ones to join in. I always used Anxiety because that is my major condition but that has been relatively under control lately - I feel Depressed today - but I don't qualify for the topics there either. I'm depressed mainly because there doesn't seem a place for me. I love some of the threads and personal thoughts for example in Staying Well, but I can't join in there, because I don't have any tips for Staying Well.

I tend to have almost paranoid thoughts through over-thinking "problems" that I would like to talk over but don't know where to talk them over before they reach the paranoid stage...I want to avoid that. I join in the Social threads saying light hearted jokey things because thats the only place I seem to belong.

I dwell on any problems my adult sons have in various aspects of their life and want to "fix things for them" - our relationship is very loving and close though - they are wonderful to me - so there is no real "problem" with my relationship with them....so I don't seem to belong in the "relationships, family" section either do I?

I worry about them all the time - when I tried to express this on forum I think it was misconstrued that I had "empty nest syndrome" - trying to adapt to my sons' leaving home....No, that's not it...they've been gone for years and years...I am a grandmother.

I liked the Getting to Know You, or is it Me? thread very much - but have been given suggestions how to start my own thread and what section to use etc and get the feeling I'm being steered away from there too.

So I am still confused. I don't feel particularly anxious today, so this shouldn't even be in Anxiety! Do you see my dilemma?

In fact the more I write the more I feel like crying - I don't know where to go next.

[Moonstruck]

Thank you all for your support and kind words and hand-holding. always appreciated - would you believe it all went very well. they didn't find anything that needed immediate rectifying (that's where the painful after effects set in) so in other words they had a good look around and I woke up again. to my amazement there was no pain. and I am back to "normal" it seems today. (whatever "normal" is for me) And I don't have to have another of these procedures for a whole year!!

Croix

I know what you mean and no, not all the games are suitable to me even though there are more coming along. My last one was such a "brilliant blast off" that it will be very hard to follow it up with a lesser impact type game - perhaps playing beneath my ability - although I don't mind that at all.....It's just that coming straight on top of the recent triumph I was delighted to be part of - it maybe an anti-climax of sorts.. So I am unsure whether to wait for the next "big one" but you are quite right - there are chances to still be involved in other aspects of the game.

Teaching/Coaching has never been my forte - but I can always serve refreshments and help with seating arrangements etc. So I must make sure I stay involved in some way - I regard it as a beneficial part of my "therapy" so I'd be silly to stay away for any length of time now I guess.....I'll keep you posted. (pardon the pun)

[CMF]

Moon,

So glad everything went well and no bad after effects.

Do you have plans for Easter? Catching up with your family?

Hugs to you

cmf x

[Lost_Girl]

Yay Moon,

All clear and another year before the next one. Terrific news.

I can see how more novice games could be anti-climatic. Beine involved though is still lovely though not quite the thrill. Still something to look forward to.

I am justill about well enough to start getting out to watch some games. There's a Fair one on later this year that I think will be terrific.

So what other hobbies do you have that may keep you occupied?

Lover me xx

[Jugglin_Strugglin]

I am relieved to hear that you have no additional pain to contend with and so pleased that you have such good news to share.

Is this an example of turning negatives into positives! Perhaps that is why the procedure resulted in so much pain last time.....they did such a thorough job that it was more effective and has saved you further pain and ongoing suffering? Hopefully in 12mths, you will still be benefitting from what you had to endure that last time.

Our brains/minds are truly complex...isn't it strange that even though I don't know you, and not even very well here on BB, yet I thought of you often yesterday. No wonder there is a saying that a problem shared is a problem halved...your dilemma helped me to take my mind off of my own stuff, so thank you for seeking support and sharing your worries.

I actually took a huge personal step (leap) yesterday and WENT OUT! I dealt with two things I have been putting off. Mind you, they were absolutely at the point of not being able to delay for another day longer. But while I was out, I found the strength to keep going and I actually went into the supermarket and got some shopping. Yay me! So a few hurdles overcome.

I also rescued a lost dog running along the road playing with the cars, and delivered him safely to his home after ringing the ph no on collar. So I was obviously meant to be there!

I survived and am feeling quite pleased with myself today. Now I'll be trying my best to keep the ball rolling (no pun intended), even if it does roll off bias(?) at times (intended).

I was there to give myself the support, encouragement and care that I needed, and I came through when it really mattered. Maybe I can depend on me. Certainly more than I can rely on anyone else. Now I just have to learn to love myself, or at least like myself a bit more.

Lee!

[Moonstruck]

Yes wouldn't it be loverly?

I will write more later - and to Jugglin" - enjoyed your words a lot!

see ya all later........

[Moonstruck]

Jugglin' you said hearing my dilemmas took your mind off your own stuff - I am sure I could dig up a few more dilemmas if it really helps. (LOL)

sounds like you had a very successful productive day anyway..you went out! And saved a dog! And went to the supermarket..in other words, you did it! And I agree....."yay to you!" Yes you can "keep the ball rolling". someone once said to me during a phone call...sort of a "throw away line" but it meant a lot to me at the time! It still does and I still remember it when I feel defeated. (isn't it funny how little things can stick with you and have an effect?)

He said "You are stronger than you think"!

Lost Girl I said I was the worst procrastinator and couldn't make decisions about things didn't I? I've changed my mind, sort of, again. Probably change it back again knowing me. (About the bloody game as if you didn't guess. ) I am thinking I may well put my name down for selection again after all. The main reason being the good therapy I believe it was last time - the sense of achievement - and friendships etc. (I've kinda grown accustomed to their faces!)

I don;t really have any other hobbies. that particular one consumed the majority of my life. Until a number of months ago I filled my time, quite happily with my part time job, long term relationship and just enjoying getting older. I ended the relationship last year so have much more time now to be "who I really am"....hard to explain.

[Croix]

Dear Moon (plus Hi to all)~

Please put your name down - bowling and even it's environment is good for you.

C

[Moonstruck]

I didn't this time Croix. There's another more suitable one coming up further along. Delving deeper into this one I made the choice that just now (especially with my painful condition I am still battling) would not be nearly as satisfying....and I even may get to resent doing it to please others.

I went into more depth on my other thread..."over thinking and paranoid thoughts" and also wrote to Dr Kim.

I won't talk long now as I feel really dreadful and having a really bad couple of days after making the decision. I had to take some of my sleeping medication yesterday as I was so panicky and riddled with guilt and wondering if I had made the wrong choice. I am a bit of a mess today and no use to anyone. Thank you for being there.

[CMF]

Hi Moon,

Sorry to hear you are still in pain and not feeling at all well.

I'm sending you some hugs and positive energy, hope you are feeling much better soon.

cmf x

[Guest_322]

Hey Moon,

Echoing CMF's sentiments here...today sounds super rough (and painful).

It must be disappointing about to not be able to sign up because of the pain. Hopefully you'll be able to sign up for the one further down the track.

Big virtual hug,

Dottie xxx