how do i stop crying

[Matchy69]

I feel so alone,i dont have many friends or anyone who wants to know what i am going through.I just find my self just breaking down and crying.I just want some one to listen and not to judge me.

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah,It just seems to be getting harder for me at the moment and with Christmas coming up and i dont have that shoulder to cry on.

My daughter has gone with her mother today to see a psychologist and i am just waiting for them to come back through to pick my son up as i have an early Hospital appointment tomorrow.

Those days off will be good for you to hopefully unwind and reflect on your own lost.The first Christmas allways seems to be the hardest.My thoughts are with you.

[Aaronsis]

Hi Mark

I absolutely hear you and that we do miss those that have been gone from our lives so very much, it is such a time filled with pressure now I am finding, to be with those we love and with family, not everyone has that option, in fact I would say that there are more people who don't than who do...

I hope that your daughter's appointment went well, and that your appointment goes well today too, and that you can get some good results as I know you are struggling to get some help that is needed for you.

Those grapes in the picture look amazing, WOW, that is so brilliant that you can grow those, they look so healthy and so full. Well done, that is so awesome.

Huge hugs to you Mark

Sarah xxx

[Matchy69]

I had my test done today,had a sleep this arvo from the sedation,so tired.I get the results in 3 weeks time.Hopefully have some answers.

The loneliness of this time of year gets to me.I am not loved all liked,it just makes realize how much i stuffed up my life.One moment their i was happy but somehow manage to destroy that.Next year i am not going to bother trying make friends or meet anyone.I dont want to go through that pain again.

[Matchy69]

Dear Sarah i just want to wish you and your family a Merry Christmas.I hope you can have some happiness in your day.Thank you for letting me talk to you,your an amazing caring person.God bless you.

[Aaronsis]

Merry Christmas to you too Mark.

What a beautiful message thank you so very much. I hope you too have a lovely day and I know that you are alone but i will toast to you at my Christmas lunch.

It is my pleasure to be here for you, we are all here for each other.

Have a great day Mark

Merry Christmas to you xx

Sarah xxx

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah,I am seeing how your Christmas was.I hope it wasn't to sad for you.

Just a quiet day for me.

[Aaronsis]

Hi Mark

Thanks so very much for checking in on me. It has been a full on few days with my family with laughs and with tears and lots of talking and eating and just being together which is so wonderful as my Aunt and Uncle live in America so time with them is precious. It has been late nights and lots of cups of tea..but all in all it is has been really good for my soul.

How are you going today and how has your Christmas time been? I hope you have had some lovely time with your kids and it has been a good few days.

Much love to you Mark

Sarah xx

[Matchy69]

Sarah I am glad you had a good christmas.Mine was very quiet,the kids went home on the monday and i had some test done at the hospital on tuesday.Christmas was quiet and sad just remembering my mum.It is allways a real sad time of the year for me.Text my brother but never heard back from him so i had no one to talk to.

[Aaronsis]

Hi Mark

I hope you are getting through this heat and that the test results will be helpful and have some answers for you, I know this has been a real journey for you so I hope that they can give you some direction with that. Christmas day I can imagine was very hard for you with the memories of your mother and her passing, it is so very hard, but we will always have them in our hearts and as I learnt from this Christmas day, it really is just another day and we still miss our loved ones just the same as we do any other day. For you though it is harder as it is also an anniversary...huge hugs to you Mark.

I am day two into trying to adopt a plant based diet. I actually feel so good and seeing those grapes on your pic reminded me..they are so awesome!

It is so hot here today and I am dreading tomorrow..43!!! I think it might be a good day to go to the movies..

Chat soon

Sarah xxxx

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah,I hope your staying out of the heat,i see it is very hot down there.It hasn't been to hot here.Been nice just could do with some more rain.Had 20mm just before Christmas.My daughter came back today from her grandparents,not sure when i will be having my kids again probably in a few days.I have just been enjoying a break from them.That peobably sounds terrible.I fixed a couple of things but mostly been watching the cricket.

I have been feeling sad,i wish i could go back and change things.Allways a regret in my life.