how do i stop crying

[Matchy69]

I feel so alone,i dont have many friends or anyone who wants to know what i am going through.I just find my self just breaking down and crying.I just want some one to listen and not to judge me.

[Matchy69]

Hi Sarah,my drive was good apart from almost getting bogged.I noticed it looked drier down there then here.The farm dams were still very dry.The farm dams here are full now.

I have some good news i finally fixed my motorbike on the weekend and just finished putting it together this morning and took it for a test ride and got soaking wet where water was running across the road.

Take care,

Your friend,

Mark.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

That is fantastic news about your bike, that will give you so much satisfaction to be able to repair your bike but to be able to get out and ride it again, that is so awesome, well done. Soaking wet I think you will agree is fine now that your bike is fixed...lol

Getting bogged though does not sound like fun so thank goodness you avoided that.....

So happy for you Mark, that is fantastic news, thank you for letting me know that, it has made my day.

Sarah x

[Matchy69]

I have tried so hard to do things and trying to stay positive but i allways go back to the same thoughts and start crying.I think of seeing a psychologist again to talk but they are so far away and i dont know if it would help.I dont want my ex to know that i struggling,i just put on my happy face and pretend everything is ok.Their is nothing i can do or anyone can do to fix anything.I just have to live wit it.

[Matchy69]

Another morning comes,another day to unfold.What things are installed for me today.

[Aaronsis]

Hey Mark

That is a really great attitude to accept the day and say welcome and ask what good things are in store for today...I really love those two roses on your profile pic, they are just stunning. You could go for a spin on your bike and take some snaps, you could wash your bike or just even take it out and take some pics of it.

I think making an appointment at the psychologists is a great idea, why wait until you are at rock bottom, get some help now and get these things off your chest so as you don't get to rock bottom, so you can feel better and get some great tools to help you through this time.

I don't think that there is any shame in letting your ex know that you are struggling. It is always good to have some people who are aware of how you are really feeling. It also might help in the way she speaks and treats you too.

I hope today is great Mark and that something however small make it a great day xx

Hugs as always

Sarah xxx

[Matchy69]

Hi sarah,i went for a ride on my bike,fuel hose split had fuel running everywhere.I fix that tomorrow.I managed to make it home which was the main thing.

I dont like telling my ex anything as she uses it against me.

I just watching the womans cricket now.

Take care,

Mark.

[Matchy69]

And Sarah that is a photo of one of my roses.I got a heap growing here.

I would have took some photos today on my ride but was to worried about getting home with the fuel leak.

Take care,

Mark.

[Matchy69]

Good news i fixed my bike this morning.It is pouring rain again here probably get flooded in again but thats ok.More upheval at my sons school.

[Matchy69]

Feeling very down this morning and didn't have a real good nights sleep and very anxious.

[Aaronsis]

HEy Mark

I didn't really have a great night's sleep either last night, I am not sure if it was the humidity or the wind but it was just a really yukky night. It really does make it hard when you don't wake up feeling very refreshed and like you have had some good sleep.

I am sorry that you are feeling anxious and sad today, also that your son is not having the best start to the year. My son has gotten off to a bit of a wonky start too so I am hoping it is just the new year and the new classes and that he will find his groove soon enough.

Well off to get a coffee and see if that somewhat helps start the day off for me.

Huge hugs Mark

Sarah xxx