Feeling down due to fatigue & undiagnosed health issues

[Elizabeth CP]

I haven't been using the forums much apart from a couple of responses to others posts. I stopped as I was too busy & trying to keep up with the forums was becoming too stressful. In September My husband went to Europe which was great although tiring due to the pace of the tour we did. Unfortunately a few days before returning home I fell heavily on concrete steps hurting my right side. I continued on relying on icepacks to manage the pain. I couldn't sleep because of the pain when lying down. The last day I came down with a bad cold which developed into a chest infection later on. The pain eased after 6 weeks & I recovered from the chest infection but have ongoing problems with fatigue & abdominal discomfort. My GP arranged pathology tests. The blood tests are normal but urine isn't. Today I was sent for a ultrasound of kidneys & bladder. Next week I have a gastroscopy & colonoscopy. My stress levels seem to be escalating out of proportion each time I see the GP & get sent for more tests. Prior to my accident my mental health issues were settling down but the last week it is much worse. I have lost my temper a few times in the last week without much provocation. This is not normal for me. I have been on a diet for several months but I am now finding it really hard to stick to it I just want to go & eat food I know will make me feel worse. The diet is a healthy one which I normally find easy to stick to because the food is satisfying.

I just want to get back on track & feel in control of my life & not feel so stressed & down. I also feel guilty for feeling this way because There is no confirmation of a serious illness.

[demonblaster]

Hey Elizabeth thanks for the update.

Poor man but good hearing there's some improvement that must be a relief for you both. I hope that continues.

It's terrible being really tired.

That's quite ok hun just when and if you're up to chatting. Take your time and get what rest you can poor soul.

Thoughts and care ⚘

[Elizabeth CP]

Last night I had really bad nightmares. Woke up really distressed by them. The hot weather is triggering them I believe. I'm worried they might be a premonition of what is about to happen which is terrifying. I feel isolated as I'm too scared to go out because of the heat and risk of sunburn. Summer is so stressful. Covid makes things worse as I can't escape anywhere safely.

[demonblaster]

Hi Elizabeth ☺

Nightmares are the pits you poor lady. My theory but I really don't know if it's the reason though ? a contributor is they're about stress finding a way out

The heats oppressive isn't it adding to what already you're feeling. If you have a spray bottle or throw some water on your face/arms & chest then have a fan on which excuse the pun I'm not a fan of particularly that can temporarily cool you a bit.

You're not at the moment (atm) by the sounds but again I may be wrong here getting any or much stress release. It's as you well know so hard not having balance with so much going on. Must be heartbreaking 🤗

I saw you'd posted on our Shellys walking thread which I aim to return to & read back a few posts. I was hopeful you've had something in the way of outs with walking but maybe not because of the sun

Wondering if there's somewhere in the shade you could be out in and take your time. Or sit and enjoy nature for a bit. Alternatively at home under a tree. Maybe before or closer to sunset when it cools a bit

Sometimes no matter how exhausted when it seems impossible to move we can even just a few steps. A slight change of scenerys given me not only a tad of energy but a temporary break from it all. Observing whatevers around us like colour insects birds sounds, the feel of a breeze or simply being out of the house can give a touch of freedom from it all It's incredibly hard yakka isn't it hun

I wonder if you've been able to sleep much lately too. It takes a long time to unwind enough let alone catch up that's so needed

As much as anxiety wants you too burn up your little energy and creates a genuine fear of what might or not too is important to be aware of, I'm finding it helps thinking IF these things happen you'll deal with them then. Another approach is directing your thinking to if there's anything you could do to be prepared

I don't know for you dear Elizabeth if it seems like you can't do another day - but we do - somehow. We have a lot more in us than we think possible

Do you think a call to the good people here could help hun

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You know hun you have many friends here that care deeply about you. We're listening when and only if you want to talk as much or little as you like

You're in my thoughts good lady and hubby too. Truth⚘

[Elizabeth CP]

I struggle with the hot weather. O can't get motivated. Even though the house is closed up and a reasonable temp I feel like I'm boiling hot and scared to do anything. I cant think of anywhere to go because it will be too hot or too crowded or the car will be too hot. I can't live like this

[demonblaster]

Good you're keeping hot air out through the day Elizabeth unless there's a breeze can give you some reprieve.

Cool showers can be a godsend too if not cold. I think when we sweat which is our bodies cooling system it can when it dries lock in the heat. Feels that way sometimes anyway.

In these times the simplest most basic things can easily be forgotten like gentle deep breathing which you'd know about and how much in tension we our poor muscles and bod needs the oxygen. It can also help relax us and destress a bit.

Do you like art or any particular music Elizabeth?

I'll bbs with a link to Marconi Unions Breathless I think it is. It's gentle and helps reduce stress lower Blood pressure and more significantly if you feel you'd like to listen to.

⚘

[Guest_1055]

Oh Elizabeth, I feel for you.

I agree with DB about the deep breathing. Concentrate on each breath and how your body is feeling. Maybe it will calm you on the inside. Nice and calm....And give your troubling thoughts a break for a while.

Maybe sit and look at photos of all the beautiful places you have been too. The hills. The views.

Wish I could make things better for you.

Magnesium is good for stress and also diffusing 100%lavender essential oil may help you calm down some

Hi DB

[demonblaster]

Weightless. Page 4 16 Oct and 18th Nov for relaxing music


Hey Elizabeth and everyone ☺

This music called "Weightless" was collaborated with music therapists.

Looks like it's still #1 in the world to help with anxiety.

It's said it can reduce anxiety by 65% & 35% of usual physcolgical resting state

https://youtu.be/UfcAVejslrU

Any things worth a go darls that might give you some reprieve from your pain.

I suggest without nagging to do deep breathing if you listen to this as often as you can think to hun.

Hold your breath for a couple of seconds on each inhale.

Slowly breathe out and feel your neck muscles relaxing it can help.

Every second we've moved into an unknown future.

Which can open new possibilities circumstances and change.

Hold on Elizabeth you really are an amazing lady doing your absolute best in such hard times.

You really are not alone here ☺🤗💗⚘

Hey Shells ☺

[Elizabeth CP]

I have made several attempts to post and thank DB & Shell for your thoughtful replies. Unfortunately my mood has not been good so my attempts to post have failed. My mistake. I have been too stressed to attempt again till now. I am supposed to see my psychologist next week but I am thinking of cancelling. I feel that I am wasting his time. I don't seem to be getting any better and I feel he has given up on me because I cant improve. I keep procrastinating about contacting the clinic. I also have had reminders from my old GP re things to follow up but I won't ever trust her again but don't feel up to seeing my new GP to explain everything. I just feel like I dont deserve help and just can't face discussing things. I'm afraid of being judged and being mistreated like I was by my old GP.

[demonblaster]

Hi Elizabeth ☺ and everyone 👋

You poor soul so so much stress and pain aye.

That's quite ok hun I know you try and do reply so whenever you're up to is fine. Truth no pressure ☺ and is the way here

How awful that you're feeling you're wasting the psychs time and that they've given up on you. Do you feel you could discuss this with them although I get that you said you're not up to talking and explaining things which is incredibly hard in this headspace.

Just that my concerns for you are that you may not be able to have much opportunity to unload which again I'm not sure but there may be things you can talk about to them but not here.

Once recently you mentioned you'd said too much on a post here which imo anyway it's exactly what here's for, to say as much or little as you feel up to. You didn't break any rules by the looks and hopefully it helped a bit getting some of the pain out.

Fear of feeling judged and being mistreated sounds pretty normal for I'd think at least most people in very bad mental health. If they're good at their job no one should feel that way.

Alternatively is it possible dear Elizabeth that feeling so incredibly low that depressions making you feel that way. I mean absolutely no harm by that it's just that first hand I know too well how our view in such deep times like this can be darkened and not always how it is.

It sounds like you've had some poor treatment from your previous GP. I'm sorry hearing that. It would be hard starting over. Do you think over a period of time you could put it in writing in small batches to give to a new one or email it to them.

Sorry I'm not sure what clinic you've been procrastinating about. Do you mean for some treatment to help you through this? If so you poor soul I hope there is a way of you being able to get some help. You're honestly imo under such hard circumstances doing incredibly well. If helps out there it'd be worth pursuing I'd think but that's your decision although you too need care darl 🤗

Thanks Elizabeth I so want to see as we all do for you to come out better on the other side of this.

Thoughts care and support ⚘

[Guest_1055]

I so much wish I could help you Elizabeth. My heart goes out to you. Can any family member stay with you for a bit? Just to take the load from you for a bit. So you can have a rest.

Thought medical records and such could get sent from one doctors to another. Maybe that would save you repeating everything. I don't know, but maybe.

Much kindness to you Elizabeth