DEVASTATED

[Falling_Angel]

Hi i havent been on for a while but im at the end of my tether

im sick of ppl assuming things about my life and then actually making me believe they are honest and true& yet they lie straight to my face especially since i put all my trust in them and thats really hard for me and also,especially since its a obvious misunderstanding on the other persons behalf ????????????????

Im confused,angry ,upset and basically plain devaststed. Why why why ??I try soo hard to please those i care about just to have it slapped in my face... I honestly give up ....!!!!!!!!!!! i really dont think im getting the proper support i need atm and then to have someone close to me run me down and not remember anything ive done for them .. thinkng im just a taker (wow) anyway this person means the world to me and i dont know how to go about working out the problem especially if i feel the replies arent honest omg how did i allow myself to get shattered like this or let myself ....!!and all because of a miscontrude overheard conversation that had nothing to do with this person and also was taken the wrong way,without discussing it with me which would have made it all different omg

anyway guess im asking how do i stop the suicidal thoughts thats are currently and have been for a few days consuming my mind ? i now feel like a noone like ive been put in the same catergory this person sees nearly everyone ? it hurts and im just gob smacked

any suggestions if anyone reads this please?? HELP

[startingnew]

They can falling angel despite having problems people can still be friends with others. But im glad your not bothered and you seem to be taking it well which is great

Shows great resilience ❤❤❤

[Falling_Angel]

Startinng new

i am bothered tho im heartbroken this lady doesnt see the real me

or if she does she doesn like it..!!! either way im hurting ill read more of your posts they are really good thankyou for caring xx

[startingnew]

it is very hard loosing friends FA i certainly know the feeling of that, just recently i thought i was very close to these three people and then bam nope they really dont like me and i found out they talk about me all the time behind my back - alot of it isnt good so i found out so its been abit rough for friends for me too

the sad thing with these three though was they saw the real me past the depression etc and they still chose to leave. i havent spoken to them in a few weeks now and they havent conteacted me either.

[Falling_Angel]

my friend lives right across the road and is aware i know that she has ben talkng about me

she is a memeber on bb also so ,makes it difficultt but ill work it out with help i hope 😞

[Falling_Angel]

we both being careful

how do u cope when u find these things out?

im jaw dropped at how bad i came across but we were both being careful yet then she run me down on BB thinkk i i should delete my account ???????????????

[startingnew]

I dont think you should delete your account FA

This is all anonymous. But it really is up to you

[startingnew]

My friends live in the same area as me with in a 15k radius and they are in my area quite a fair bit so every now and then i see them when im driving.

These people are actually older than me and i thought i was fitting in quite well as we had the same hobbies but after a while i has to move to another interest and then theu turned on me.

They didnt say it straight away they just let their hatred grow while they were silent and then i sent them a msg asking what was going on and why were they ignoring me and what have i done. Then it blew up in my face. They name called and we were really mean about it.

The only way i cope is to just try and live life without them . Hard i know but its their problem not yours. You havent done anything

[startingnew]

Do you mean they know who u r on bb?

[Falling_Angel]

yes she does

[startingnew]

then i would FA and then create a new account under another name so that she doesnt know then you can speak freely without worry