Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[demonblaster]

Hiya dear bbff Grandy 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩 💫 and all lovelies 😊

Sweety I need to walk shortly, haven't for a couple of days so I"ll beee back but have read your post lovely one. 
Sending a stack of love and hugs 🤗 darlin girl 
See you/se all soon-ish 👀💗💚🤗

Oh oh 😂 Deendy 🐉 rang me at huh hymmm 2.23am that was just dandy 😤 but dear girl she was asking after you and said after she finishes her world tour...see it's a practice run oops should say fly for her 🐝Dragonfly-ing comp in 2 days so asked me to tell you she'll be there yesterday because she loves you SOOOO much. 

Eagle and Pawsy 💗💗🤗🤗