Alone..Depressed..Sad..

[Ggrand]

Hi..I'm new here..just need to put my feeling down..no one to talk to makes depression and anxiety so hard...the last 4 days I have either been in bed crying or on the lounge crying..I can't seem to get out of this...I am becoming a prisioner in my own home as its getting progressively difficult to go out.. I have to go out Tuesdays so I do everthing on that day but it's like I'm holding my breathe all day until I get back to the safety of my home then I can let go and that starts the cycle again of spending the next 6 days at home either in bed or on the lounge sad and depressed...I really feel like just giving up.. My husband passed away 4 years on This coming Thursday. My children live 6 hours drive away and have small children so I don't see them that much.Bad mum and grandmum I am on there last visit i was pleased to see them but I just wanted them to go home. I feel so aweful and numb atm..

[quirkywords]

Grandy

i echo what others have said.

I admire your honesty in sharing your feelings what is happening.

[Ggrand]

Hello Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩, Moon, Quirky and all...🤗

Thank you all for your caring posts...it really means a lot to see familiar friends names that I can talk to without feeling that fear...of saying something wrong....love to you all💜..

I got admitted this afternoon in the hospital hundred of kilometres to my home...Only to be transferred to the one closer to me tomorrow morning the one I stayed in a couple of years ago..My anxiety and fear is running so high,,,too many people around me...My support worker is picking me up at 9am tomorrow morning..first my cardiologist appointment 10.30 am...then straight to the hospital from their...I am safe I now that I am in hospital but I am also scared...being away from home and my fur babies is really hard for me....

I worry about my furs babies when I’m not their...Mrs. NSC assures me she will take good care of them...I trust her but.... you know.....no one can love them like I do..

I hope I’m not in for too long...Hospital is too hard...

Thank you all for being here..

Bbff....so much wish od/ was 2 day....love you precious friend..💚👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩🦄🧸🤗💭 24/7..

Love and hugs everyone....💜🤗..it takes 2 to hug ..so I get some back...😁..

Grandy..

[Tess2]

Dear Grandy,

i am so relieved to hear from you and that you are ok.

i am glad that you are being transferred to the other hospital. I hope that you will fell more comfortable there.

i am not surprised that you feel anxious , any of us would feel that way.

iam sure Mrs NSC will look after your fur babies, but I know it is not the same.

meanwhile if you focus on feeling better and getting well enough to go home that will help.

i am thinking of you and sending you my best thoughts Grandy,

love tess

[Paw Prints]

Hello Grandy,

Here is a big squishy bear hug....

You little mischief you 😁 hiding under the covers to chat on here.... yay you!!

I really hope you find it a bit easier being back at a more familiar hospital... from what I remember there was an area outdoors with a big rock that you could spend some quiet time in & take in all natures loveliness.

Remember lass you have done this before & you can do it again... try not to worry about your furs... now we know Mrs NSC has a soft spot.. I think she might spoil them a bit...

I hope your cardiologists appt goes well...

Woofa sends you some gentle snuffles in your ear... & here is another bear hug from me

love & hugs

Paws

[demonblaster]

Hey beautiful bbff 👩‍❤️‍👩 and all lovelies hi too ☺

Gorgeous lady I too am so glad you're in the place you were before.

Good on you Pawsy 🐾 I remember our Grandys rock too and the train tracks without fences too.

There were some nice staff there too. I hope you see them again. That'd be comforting I'd think.

Yip me too I love you sneaking under the blankies with your IPad. You go girl 😆

Bought you some 🍫...you might have some...um... how to say this...well .... see that rather large bite out of it...see I was unwrapping it to make it easier for you then I fell and of course twith the fright of falling head first...well ... my mouth was open see 😲...

You'll be so proud Grandy I've been incredibly good on the diet my minds in the right place but will have more accidental breaks like with the choccy 😶

Mrs NSN will take good care of your gorgeouses and yes true no one could love them as much as you.

I think or hope you migh nottn be as long there this trip because you've made incredible progress. Guessing maybe atm it doesn't feel that way sweetness but you really have in many areas.

I'm glad you're safe precious love.

You mean so much to many people beautiful soul you are 🤗 ..oh and here's an extra 🤗 just because ☺

It's well and truly witching hour now. Must hop on my broom and finish off my herbal healing brew I have simmering in my cauldron for you.

Love you very much dear sss. All the best for a good recovery and hoping you settle in ok sweet lady. Oh yeah me too Grandz I so wish today too. Honestly was thinking tonight it'd so good to be there with you in esp in these hard times.

See you tomoz oop today.

Nigh nite sweetyheart 😚

👩‍❤️‍👩💆‍♂️💜👀👂🤝💤

[Ggrand]

Hello Tess, Paws, Deebi👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩.......🤗

Thank you so much...

Spent nearly 3 hours waiting for my appointment at my Cardiologist..,.Geez...then 5 minutes to hear that I have cholesterol building up in arteries...Eat healthy! exercise and loose some weight..,,,Okay, I’ll give it a go..(again)

Arrived here at hospital....around 2 pm...Psychiatrist +2 others done assessment of my mh...starting off being admitted for 2 weeks....

Its really noisey here..My room is right opposite the kitchen...banging and clanging...the other people in here, (11) talk loud, why do people talking to one person only, have to talk loud enough for the entire mh rooms to hear?

some bad language ....and someone walking up and the hallway bouncing a tennis ball as she/he walks...not used to any noise and my brain is high alert....feeling trapped and unable to get away from the noise is getting me down further...

The bathroom is the only quiet place in my room...Maybe this afternoon after group session..I might wheel my bed in their to get some quiet....Although the mh nurses here said that it is just normal noise that is going on through the day.?....Not where I live it isn’t..Geez I hate sudden loud sharp noises....

Got to go to group session again very soon....Volunteering yourself in for treatment and help....is what my Psychiatrist preferred...because he knows either way that voluntary or not when being admitted in.....your stuck until the psychiatrist gives you the golden discharged/ release key....


Love and hugs everyone....💜🤗🧸🌹..

👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩Grandy...bbff..🌜🍄🌺🕊🌱🦜🌛...24/7=💚💭🦄.

[Tess2]

Dear Grandy, so glad you are settling, despite all the noise, it would get to me too. I live in a very quiet place.

well, just take part in the groups , you know the ropes , then you might be let home in the two weeks they will see how much progress you have made and who knows you may get benefit from them.

The psych only wants to do what is best for you, so that you can return home, they much prefer people at home with support there otherwise we’d all be in psych hospitals of some sort.

My dogs are very hairy so I am going to try clippering them over the Easter break, probably tomorrow. Wish me well with this.

take heart that we are all here for you ❤️❤️

Tess

[Croix]

Dear Grandy~

I can well understand how that constant noise can keep you on edge and not let a proper environment do it's work. Would you think that ear plugs or earmuffs might take the edge off. I use them at times, they do not stop the noise but do mute it and make it less abrupt. They are the kind that I can plug a cord into and listen to the radio or whatever I want, sometimes a way of getting though things, even if silence would be best.

Croix

[Hanna3]

Hi Grandy,

Sorry I haven't been around here much lately. I'm glad you are getting help although I know your own home is much more comfortable and nice! Have they given you any indication of how long you might be in the hospital? I'm wondering if it is the one I know, in big town with O? Or not?

Do know that we are all thinking of you, and little Sam sends you the fluffiest, softest cuddles! I'll pop by tomorrow and see how you're doing there.

Not too long and you'll be back home with your furs! Meanwhile I hope they give you some support and help there... glad you've seen the cardiologist, that report sounds OK, just the usual diet and exercise!!

I'll play some lovely harp music and try to waft it in your direction dear lady! hugs! xooxoxoxoxoxo

[demonblaster]

Hey gorgeous lady 👩‍❤️‍👩 and everyone ☺
How you goin today beautiful?

Ok so I know!. Our gorgeous Peppy darling would be giving you love gentle care and an awesome mouthwatering basket of goodies if she was here.

So in her absence geez I hope she's ok! Love if you're Listening huns 🤗 I'll do one in Deebi style.

So my shweety... open it vewy vewy quietly ..slowly... yip...that's the way darlz...oh looky Grandy at the dear little Finches flying out. They're tiny gorgeous wee tweety's (Hi tweety if you're listening 🤗) with the sweetest quiet most gentle birdy sound like you'd expect from such an adorable dainty little creature.
You get to choose their colours except that Cerise one I picked out. My fave colour

Oh oh honey ... there's a gorgeous psychadelic butterfly 🦋 flying around too ... in the night it's even more radiant displaying every colour of the rainbow 🌈 It really is so graceful Grandy you'd love it

It'll with the little tweeties bring you a sense of calm when they fly so peacefully around you.
Oh how gorgeous one landed on your head ...day and night they'll watch 👀 you for me. See I installed and not being one to brag ...well too much...I made these...tinsy winsy widdle video cameras on their back packs, they don't even notice them surprisingly.

They'll be a permanent addition to y/our family sweetyheart if you'd like them.

So deeper on the 25th floor of this 🎁 basket sitting bang in the middle of a sheepskin covered in a Purple Saturn/Velvet (being virtual an all) you'll see a dazzling display of shiny Silver slithers creating amazing patterns around the tiniest glass ball with the most gorgeous Golden heart inside...I took a photo of yours then did a 3D of it on my PC cause you know my talents.

So when beasty strikes ...you reach into the basket feeling the most luxurious hand massage that spreads throughout your body ....lastly your head... so you just pick it up and throw it against the wall hard ...oh you must breathe oops and say really loud ...Beasty be gone! ...yip...it does work then our little tinsies bring it back to and pop it in your pocket.

Love you Mrs Grandy always.
Hope you're going ok honey heart 🤗👩‍❤️‍👩💜