That sinking feeling is coming back.

[La_Vie_en_rose]

I've battled with depression for a few years now, and as much as I've made it "work" in my life. I can feel the sinking feeling slowly pulling me into the pit again. 

I know I shouldn't be like this, I have a good life. I have a job, a home, a partner, and I live comfortably with the things I want. 

But the stress really really is starting to give me the blues. I came home from work in years today, all because I made myself stress about my boss coming in tomorrow (they're lovely btw). I didn't even tell my boyfriend, I just went and had a bath and cried to myself. I don't know what I'm really doing here, I just need help. Someone to talk to. I know I should talk to my boyfriend, but I feel like a burden. Why should he have to put up with my sook moods? 

[Dennis38]

First off La Vie we all get depressed from time to time, doesn't matter if you have all the money in the world or a "good life" things will build up on all of us, we each can only take so much before we start feeling depressed or moody, so there is no shame in feeling like that, the shame comes in not dealing with it. Now then the real "burden" is when you try to hide your "sook moods" because yes even guys can tell something is wrong even though women always seem to think we do not! Its the part of being a lover we take you with what ever mood your in.

My wife puts up with my moods, and I put up with hers not because we have to but because we love each other and that is what couples do, or should do. Its called supporting each other. Now I don't mean for you to go all moppy and whiney all the time but there is nothing wrong with sitting down and telling the boyfriend, hey I feel like sh*t today. Some times its best to talk about things, have a good cry, then go about fixing the problems!

[Dean_44]

Hi La Vie en rose, I just joined the forum today and your post stood out to me. I have felt the same emotions in my ongoing ‘war’ with depression. I have/had ‘no good reason’ to feel depressed. I too have a good job, house, partner and friends. Yet ‘that sinking feeling’ is all too familiar. I am no expert, but here are a few things that have helped me. 1.    Try not to beat yourself up with the ‘no good reason’ line. You ARE feeling depressed/low/down, good reason or not. So where to from this point is the important thing. 2.    I think having someone to talk to is important. Whether it is a GP, psychologist, psychiatrist or a partner, family member or friend. This was a difficult step for me. I tried to deal with it all by myself and I was failing. When I eventually opened up to my partner, I felt like a weight was lifted off my shoulders. Soon after we split up. Sadly these things can happen, but I felt like I had started the process of addressing my depression. 3.    Take advantage of all the resources available to you. Read the info on the beyondblue website. Go to a GP and if needed get a referral for a psychiatrist or a recommendation for a psychologist. This sounds all so simple listed in a few lines of text. In reality it will take a while to find out what works for you. But I am sure the answer IS out there. I am feeling well at the moment and fingers crossed I will stay that way. My journey over the last 12 years has included: 10 different medications, alone or in combination; CBT; ECT. Good luck on your journey.