Still sick and depression hitting hard

[Chloekat84]

hey guys. Well ive been sick for a while and the doc has told me I have a bacterial infection in my throat and its been killing me. Anyways today my emotions got the better of me and I just started crying for no reason and couldn't control it. It was horrible and I was out in public which was worse. Its like this feeling came over me and it was all too much for me to handle. Prob is I never know when its gonna come on on and start or stop I just cry for no reason I just cant handle being sick anymore and its showing through my emotions. I just cant handle feeling neuseas especially that brings on a crying session. I just candle it anymore :'(

[Neil_1]

Hi there Chloe

Ok, so the Doc has diagnosed a bacterial infection.  What is the next step for you??   Are there anti-biotics that they’ll give you to treat it?   Surely there must be something that can be arranged for you to take to ease this and fix it??

You raised an interesting point with regard to your crying.  You say, “I just cry for no reason …”.   Again, I’m no psyche or doctor at all, but I’d be surprised if this was the case.  While to you, it may appear that it’s for no reason, I think that there’s got to be something deep down, buried, that is causing you to be so emotional.  And not just the constant sick feeling and sore throat either.

Are you on anti-depressants?   And if so, have you been taking them for a while?   Just a quick thought that you “may” need to get a medication review??

Kind regards

Neil

[Chloekat84]

Hi there Neil. Yes im on antibiotics and my throat is a lot better now and theres barely any pain. I am taking antidepressants but I haven't taken this new one for a very long time so I don't think thatll be changed. In another day or so im goin to be coming off my current anti psychotics and going to start new medication. This is all going to take time I know but still cant control the extreme depression that sometimes hits like today im not feeling very good but im trying not to cry as I have my daughter today and don't want her to see me like that. just trying to control the depression but its really hard atm 😞 really trying to see the briht side of things which is soo hard 😞

[Neil_1]

Hi there Chloe

Thanx so much for your reply and for the further information shared.

Is it possible to take your daughter out and about and do something – something that might help both of you.  Like a walk to the park or to some other place that might be not too far away where she might find things of interest to look at etc – I’m trying to think of places where you can just go to, where there’s no money involved.  Not sure of your location, but if you’re coastal, a walk along a beach – to find some rockpools – and you never know what you’ll find in some of those.

If you can do something like that, it might just assist you for a while as well.  To take your mind off things and to give you something to concentrate on – but also to hopefully see the joy within your daughter as well.   Just thoughts.

Having said all of the above, that’s all well and good if you’re feeling “ok” to do something like that.  But as you mention that you’re shortly to come off one kind of medication, during these times, we can have differing emotions while we move from one medication to another.  I hope that your Dr is keeping an eye on you during this process as well – and you’ve already mentioned that you’ve got some extreme depression upon you now and that is understandable due to the particular medication cycle you’re in.

Perhaps another alternative for today might be simply to obtain one of your daughter’s favourite movies and put that on, and the two of you can watch it.  Kind of a chill-out process.

Again just thoughts – but please keep in contact and let go and vent as much as you would like.

Cheers

Neil

[Chloekat84]

Hi Neil. The last few days haven't been good ones. I have just been crying for no reason. Nothing will bring it on it just happens and then I feel soo depressed I find it hard to do simple things around the house it just really gets me down it doesn't matter if im out in public or at home the waterworks just come on and its hard to stop. Unfortunetely I don't live near a beach im more rural but even if I go to a playground we need to catch public transport into town etc so gota make a day of it so I need to be in the right frame of mind to do this. My tonsillitis is a lot better so I know it not there I just get this knot in my stomach and when I get really depressed and crying etc I cant eat so I feel neuseas. Unfortunetely my daughter doesn't really watch tv so doesn't have aa fav show but she loves books and always wants me to read one specific one over and over. Shes seen me cry and give me hugs, I know she doesn't understand y mummy is crying. Im on my own when this happens and it can happen whether I have my daughter or not. Sorry for the big story I just don't know what to do and I haven't even started the switch of medication yet so im worried what ill be like when I do 😞 Anyways that's it for now hope ur having a better day than me.