Dear Combine
Hello and welcome to the forum. Gad you found your way here.
Depression is a horrible thing to have. It is no respecter of persons and the black dog bites and holds on to whoever it feels like. Symptoms of depression are very much aligned with feelings of uselessness and lack of self worth. Probable sounds as though I am stating the obvious but it is important to remember it is the black dog whispering in your ear not the essential you.
You are the same person you were when you were younger and you are very much worthwhile.
May I ask if you live alone or with your family? It is hard to manage without support. I am presuming you have a job and get out of the house to go to work. Is that right? It's important to get out and not become a recluse.
I once knew someone who constantly urged me to look for the positives. I got very frustrated because it's not like deciding what meal to have at a restaurant. When we are so deeply depressed it is very hard to find some encouragement. May I ask if you have any professional help. You sound very alone and this is never a good thing. I wonder how you would feel about seeing your GP and talking about your depression. I am saying this because I have a wonderful GP in respect to mental health and she has provided me with lots of help and support. I hope you have a GP who will listen, support and put you in touch with a suitable professional.
Please do not struggle to find something positive about yourself. The more you search the harder it becomes to find anything. Instead try to look at those activities you have enjoyed in the past and perhaps rekindle that enjoyment with one activity. Please continue to post in here if you think it helpful.
Mary
