Is this depression?

[mate01]

So I've been thinking for a little bit that I might have depression, but I was unsure, so I didn't say anything to anyone. Now, people around me have noticed things about me that I see as well. So here is a list (kind of matched up with a symptom list):

- I lack motivation for just about anything, except for the things that make me happy

- I create roadblocks for a majority of tasks and opportunities

- I go through different emotions throughout the day (e.g. I'm not sad for all the day)

- Rumination (can be about literally anything, often ends in a feeling of worthlessness)

- Am quite tired or worn out (could just be school as I am in year 12)

I also did an online test which stated that I fell into the category of moderate depression, but I know that they are only a guide.

What do you guys think? It's really playing on my mind and I need to do something about it

[White_Rose]

Dear Mate

Welcome to the forum. You do sound a bit sad and confused. To determine if you are clinically depressed you need to see your doctor. I suggest you book a long appointment, perhaps take a copy of your post or anything else you feel would be helpful. Your GP is best placed to help you and can refer you for counselling if necessary.

Lack of motivation and procrastination are very common in depression. Sometimes it feels as though someone has switched off the petrol and the tank has run dry. It can be quite disorienting. Mood changes are also par for the course as is the feeling of worthlessness. Depression, AKA the black dog, has a habit of barging into our lives without so much as a by your leave. The dog is no respecter of persons.

Did you answer the K10 checklist on beyondblue? If not perhaps it would be worthwhile doing this. You can find it under The Facts above. I suggest you print this out and take it with you to your doctor. As you say, it's not a diagnostic tool but can give an indication.

By the time many students reach year 12 they feel tired and dispirited. It's a huge part of your life and marks the change from student to work life. Even if you go to uni many students need to find a job to help manage the costs. It's not an easy time. This is why it's a good idea to get some help. You may or may not be depressed but either way it's good to know so that you can move ahead. Rumination is not helpful as we simply go over the same old same old. I have certainly been there and I know how easy it is to get caught in this behaviour.

When you notice this happening try to do something physical to move you away from this. I often suggest weeding the garden. There is something quite satisfying in pulling up weeds and allowing the plants to breathe. It's also an analogy for our lives.

Please continue to write in and talk to us.

Mary

[mate01]

I did just take the K10 test, and I got 28-moderate

[Loco23]

Hi Mate01,

As White Rose mentioned, you'll need to go see a doctor to determine if you are clinically depressed. This should be a priority right now. I know it can be hard with the busy lifestyle of Year 12 but try and make time. Your health is the number 1 priority in life

[geoff]

Hello Mate, thanks for posting your comment.

With what you have said there are strong indicating that you may have depression, however, with this illness, we no longer enjoy the things that make us happy because nothing can excite us.

We also don't create roadblocks they just happen, but yes I agree with Mary and Loco book an appointment to see your doctor.

From memory year 12 is a time packed with the chore of having to remember so many topics.

Best wishes.

Geoff.