Introducing my (drum roll please) multiple problems and all consuming depression. Yay!

[Vivianbear]

So...to start with lets look at my childhood or lack there of. I grew up in what would seem to be a pretty happy home, two parents and 3 other siblings. My father however was an asshole to put it bluntly! After the age of 8 he basically hated me or just straight up didn't care. I was a victim of family violence between the ages of 8 and 12. After that it all became verbal, emotional, and mental. Since last year my parents have been seperated and after an episode during visitation with my dad I no longer see him. I am still a victim of family violence though but now it's from my brother. Now on to the depression. I have been depressed side around the age of 12. It flares every now and then. Today it was pretty bad cause I just randomly started crying and talking to myself like I used to. I am 16 and a girl.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Vivianbear, welcome to the forums.  This is a really supportive place to come and talk through what's going on in your life.  It sounds like your family situation has been very frightening, upsetting and unsafe over the years.  Please let us know how best we can support you here, whether you would like to talk through some options for how to manage your depression and family situation, or whether you'd just like a place to vent when things are tough.  

We are concerned for your immediate safety after reading your post.  It's worrying to read that you are still experiencing family violence currently with your brother.  Have you heard of 1800 RESPECT? https://www.1800respect.org.au/ It's a confidential counselling support service for people impacted by family violence, we would really recommend you getting in touch with them for some advice.

We hope to hear from you again soon.