I need to talk to someone

Chris D · ‎12-01-2014

Can someone reply please, i need to talk. I would like some company, wish people would msg me but they don't and when i do they say sometimes you have to deal with it on your own. I just want to talk about things in general.

I feel lonely it's like no one has time for me everyone is off doing their own thing with other people. I would like to meet all of you in person and to tell our stories and experiences face to face.

I'm starting to question myself wondering wheather i am actually good enough for anyone including myself.

Kind Regards

Chris

hayley_jaclyn · ‎12-01-2014

Hello Chris,

This is my very first post. I just joined the site 3mins ago... and I'm here for you.

I know exactly how it feels to be lonely and the pain that goes with feeling like you're not good enough.

Obviously, I don't personally know you, but trust me - you are good enough. You are worth something. Sometimes we put such pressure on ourselves to be the person we think others want us to be. It's completely unachievable.

Winston Churchill said 'if you're going through hell, keep going'. I think about this a lot. If we stopped, we'd be trapped in hell.

Keep going Chris. I'm listening.

Kindest regards,

Hayley

Susan83 · ‎12-01-2014

Hi Chris,

You are not alone in your thoughts....

Its great that you have come looking for a chat... Sometimes its easier to talk to people that don't know you in real life.

What are you up to?

geoff · ‎13-01-2014

dear Chris, as they say in the classics 'fire away'.

Something awful must have happened to you over this long period which we know about, but something has stirred the pot to accentuate the situation, it's only 2 am so you plus all the others maybe still asleep, but we're here for you, just take your time.

I will be taking Moo-Moo down to the park at 3am and go back to bed for a couple of hours, but I will reply back to you, as I'm sure the others will. Geoff.

Neil_1 · ‎13-01-2014

Hey Chris

What’s up my friend? Geoff was correct that I fair number of us were asleep … after all, I really do need my beauty sleep. I usually sleep about 23 hours a day just say I can stay as beautiful as I currently look! (Comment from editor: not all of what you just read is entirely true, especially about me looking beautiful – ahh, but that’s a subject for another time).

Chris, you’ve said you just want to talk about things in general. I’ve asked on a couple of other occasions to see if I can find out your interests or hobbies, etc. People do have time for you … we have time for everyone and please don’t feel yourself ever excluded from that because in no way are you being excluded. I’ve asked those questions before so as any of us could then strike up something to chat with you about, which would be something that interests and pleases you. So if you can let us know that, that will help us greatly in being able to have a chat with you.

You must be talking also about some other social network thing where you said that others would say deal with it on your own … cause that simply wouldn’t happen here.

People care, people care for you Chris and we are here for you. I hope you can get back to us soon.

Cheers

Neil

Jo3 · ‎13-01-2014

Hey Chris,

I hope you can come on here and chat with us. You know we all care about you.

Your friend

Jo

Jo3 · ‎13-01-2014

Hey Chris

I am worried about you because you haven't replied. I hope you're okay. Hopefully you can come on here and let us know how you are.

Even just to chat about anything

Jo

Chris D · ‎14-01-2014

Hi Everyone,

Monday and today haven't been so gd. later this afternoon i am having some x-rays and ultrasounds done on both my collar bones, as they both have growths on them in particular the right one. This is why i haven't replied as i have been trying to get my head around what my doctor said he think what these growths are.

Sorry if i worried you all, it's just i have alot of things and alot of different people that i am seeing so my life at the moment is very busy and quite hectic, all the while trying to deal with my depression and staying positive.

It is just really hard and difficult, i'm in a real bind feel like i'm stuck in between a rock and a hard place. My mind has been concerned about these tests this afternoon, haven't been able to focus on things well. I try different tools that i have in place to take my mind of things but just can't escape the concerning thoughts. I think i will be more at ease when i know the results of the tests, wheather it is gd or not so gd news.

Hope Everyone is WELL, SAFE, STAYING STRONG, BEING DEFIANT AND RELAXING.

Kind Regards

Chris

Jo3 · ‎14-01-2014

Hi Chris,

I was starting to worry about you. I kept checking to see if you had posted and I'm glad to see you have.

I really hope that the tests go alright today with your collarbone. It's good that you are using different tools to take your mind of things. That is really good.

Pls take care and I'll be thinking of you. Hope everything goes alright.

Jo

Chris D · ‎14-01-2014

Hi Jo,

Had the tests done this afternoon and the got a phone call earlier tonight with the results, doesn't look good regarding the growths they are wraped around both collar bones in particular the right collar bone. I have to go to sydney for more tests and things.

Looks like another twist in my life coming up shortly.

Life hey just as i am starting to think your getting on top of things you get thrown another curveball, another obstacle that i have to try and overcome. It's one big roller coaster up and down like a yoyo.

All day i was worried about the result of the tests and now that i have the results i'm no better. Sat in a support group that i go to on tuesday nights and just sat there without saying a word with a worried look on my face looking at the clock wondering when i was going to get the call regarding the results. People asked me if i was ok and if i wanted to share my concern with them but i didn't as i hadn't received the phone call "no i'm not ok" was the reply when they asked if i was.

Just felt like bursting out into tears all night long and that feeling got worse when i was told of the results, i had to keep wiping my eyes holding the tears at bay.

Hope everyone is well.

Kind Regards

Chris