Hi Shane, I'm glad you've reached out here mate. Have you had a chance to read much of the information on the site? Especially about depression? We can't diagnose you of course, but what you describe sounds very familiar to me. Feeling down for no obvious reason, crying, overthinking and wanting to change even small things you've done, doubting yourself, wondering what the hell is wrong with you ... yep, I know those feelings well.
Sometimes the black dog bites us for no apparent reason. When I was first diagnosed with depression, after years of struggling with something I didn't understand and couldn't describe, I had no 'reason' to be depressed. Married, kids, house, job, all seemed well. And yet I was, and had been for a long time, clinically depressed.
Arm yourself with information mate, and see your doctor. It might be that you just need a bit of medical help to get you back on track. The good thing is that depression is not always long-term and doesn't always recur. Some people go through it once or twice in their lives and, if they are treated properly, and develop strategies to recognise and ward it off, they might not suffer it again.
It's far more common than a lot of people realise - one in five Australians will experience depression at some point in their lives.
There's various ways to treat it, and your doctor will help you.
Very best wishes to you Shane, please let us know how you're going. And please know that while this is scary right now, depression is an illness. No different in many ways to a physical illness, nothing to be ashamed of, nothing to hide, but certainly nothing to ignore!
Kaz
