Dear Myahlove, here I am again.
Most of us here have been in that rut. And we use our accounts to advise others like yourself.
There has been countless times I've felt like doing something seen as extreme. Leaving home and living in the bush, zero contact with others etc. I even did a plan once about it. My plan consisted of the difficulties in retreating into the bush.
The first thing was that I would not have any earnings. So how would I buy a cream if I had skin problems? tools for hunting etc - you get the picture. This led me to seeking a "balanced" approach, a more logical and intelligent answer.
Let's start with talking to people. You want to eliminate talking to everyone. This seems a defensive mechanism but the reasons I'll leave to the pro's. Try to seek a happy medium for you. It isnt realistic to eliminate all talking. I went through a period whereby I wanted to act mute so I didnt leave myself vulnerable to others. This was indeed a defense from cruel people that throw their nasty comments at you without warning. I get hurt easily, am super sensitive, so am open slather to those that abuse, often those people sense a weaker personality. In the meantime I've also developed a plan of attack. When someone takes up the nasty comment I hit back now and challenge their tone of voice. etc. So I've developed a two pronged answer to some people.
I've done a lot of cognitive therapy. This is where I've attended consultations to learn ways to tackle certain situations that I didnt learn as a child. Like Street wisdom. How to defend myself with few words. Always asking questions if I dont get clarity etc. Basic stuff. You might benefit from this sort of training.
As for getting out of bed I have never had that issues with my troubles. Again, as mentioned in my other post on another thread- chat with your GP. They are the lifeline to present and future health and referrals that can be so beneficial. Dont feel embarrassed or shamed....its all for the betterment of your life.
