You're welcome Sad 🙂 Hi all
Daghh lost post, Quote: "I feel worthless, tired, bored with everything. I have no self-esteem left."
This is the nature of the beast Sad, it's sole purpose is to pull us down in every way.
Gold said here on bb "we don't have to believe it" how true, our stength with depression gets buried but it's still there, babysteps can bring it back up, then when we're stronger to visit our pain & work through it if it can be or come to an acceptance, leaving it in the past & moving forward. Easier said than done 🙂
Do you know anything specifically that's pulling you down. Does your mind constantly repeat same things? or the Blackness going on without reason. If there is repetitive specifics, when you're stronger maybe could address them but later I suggest
To get through this part of the pain you're experiencing, I feel you're doing the right thing that goes against every fibre in your being to get out of bed and watch TV with your loving by the sounds parents, great asset
Distraction gives the mind temporary reprieve of pain Sad, I think for most we can only have one thought at a time. Doesn't have to be biggies, something like having a pen & paper in hand, just let the mind lead your pen, not too much thought but enough to focus on what you're doing
Movement, not much, once in one of my deep Blacks forced myself to go to spare room for something, on the way was looking around and watching where I was going, on returning & it was slow process, deep exhaustion realised I felt slightly lifted. Better than how it was
Pushing through is mammoth but necessary, anything to break the train of thought. When we think about how we feel emotions kick in making us feel worse. This is where distraction comes in, the thoughts will come we can't stop them they're fast so at that point you could also try that's not hard to look around at anything & everything (Starwolf xx) you can either think about the couch, TV, curtains, carpet etc or just continue looking around, this defers furthur thought of the pain temporarily. Every little's a big
If this is BP depression Sad, it eventually when you catch up on sleep (exhaustion) will pass.
All best with new psych & meds hoping will settle in time with side affects.
