Hey everyone,
This is my first time posting and I'm just asking for some advice. I left my job a little over 12 months ago, to begin a new one with a relative in their business. I thought it would be great because it's closer to home and I was promised the flexibility as I was studying towards a degree at the time. It being a new business, it was a struggle to get it off the ground and I really struggled in that first year with being burnt out that has gradually made feelings of depression creep up on me. The job itself is very high pressure and I have been battling severe work stress for atleast a year now.
I have never struggled with any feelings of depression before beginning this job, although I do struggle with social anxiety. I thought it would be easier for me this year as more people were hired to help me, but I find it isn't the case.
I have been trying to sway my thoughts to the positive but it isn't working. I find myself always saying to myself that I have to just through one more day, and one more day and so on... I go to bed with anxiety about having to go to work the next day, and then wake up with anxiety about having to go to. I feel like I would rather do anything but this job. It's just not for me.
I don't know what to do as I live out ofhome and have a lot of expenses that my partner cannot managed on his own and it being a relatives business I'm worried about letting them down by leaving. I feel like I am trapped which isn't making it any easier. I don't know what to do anymore...
