Feeling alone

[Mickii]

Do you ever feel like you are facing a battle alone? How do you feel better when you don't know what is wrong? I have an amazing family, help from medical people...but I still feel lost. I wish someone would say...this is what is wrong with you. Sometimes I feel amazing....but more often defeated. I know this is weird, but I don't want to die, but I don't want to live. Do other people feel that way?

[smallwolf]

Hi Mickii,

At this time (writing this post, literally) I feel defeated, tired, rundown, etc. Like you, a wonderful and supportive family. I also take medication. Lets just put it down to some imbalance in the brain. Me... I just dont want to get out of bed. I also uses the phrase "just wanting to disappear" which for me is similar to wanting to hide under a rock.

So... are you getting professional help? What coping strategies do you have?

Tim

[Mickii]

Thanks Tim. My psychiatrist is on holidays till January, so I feel it is just me and this world. Yes I have medication, which really helps. I wonder if I should increase the dose. I know I need help, but if I go into hospital it hurts others....so I have to deal with it as is.....I understand academically my mental health, but that does not help how I feel.

[smallwolf]

Oh, *sad face* (re psychiatrist)

What do you have in the way of support until then?

[Mickii]

I guess my own resilience

[Sophie_M]

Hi Mickii,

Thanks for reaching out here tonight. We're so sorry to hear that you're feeling so alone. It must be really tough to know that your psychiatrist will be away for so long when you're struggling and you need some support. 

We would really encourage that you do try and see someone else in the interim, if only to discuss adjusting your dosage. In the meantime, if you need some advice and want to talk things through we would recommend that you get in contact with the Beyond Blue Support Service. They are available 24/7 by phone on 1300 22 4636 or on Webchat 3pm-12am AEST on our website: www.beyondblue.org.au/getsupport  

Feel free to reach out to the community here whenever you feel up to it - we hope it is of some comfort.

[Ggrand]

Hello Mickii,

Im so sorry that your feeling so alone..it’s a terrible feeling and one that makes me feel confused about my mental health and me...

Thats a long time until you see your psychiatrist again... I am wondering if you could chat to your GP and let them know your thoughts, feelings and how you are not feeling mentally well...Upping your medication without first reaching out for the help of your GP, I feel could be the wrong thing to do...Your GP can help guide you with your meds....

I have only me to help me...I live alone and trying to pick myself up from a deep depression is really hard...I try hard to find some thought of distraction to help me..Yes it’s very difficult at times because motivation goes down to near non existent in depression...

To answer your last question yes I feel that way at times....I think we want to live but also want to get away from the hurting we are going through,,,,each day is different, each hour is different and we keep on going because of that...knowing that things constantly change, is I feel my motivation to get through each day the best wiI can...Some are great days, most are not..but the great days are what I’m living for....

Im pleased you have a beautiful family that support you..It always warms my heart to hear... when others have wonderful supportive families...

Can you reach out to your family for help when your feeling lost?...even chatting on the phone to a loved one can help raise us a little..

My kindest thoughts given with my care..

Grandy..