Hey Kaz,
I'm sorry to hear you are struggling so much. It sounds really hard on you each day just to continue to work and keep a brave face for your family.
Sadly these things don't just go away on their own. But that doesn't mean they won't go away with a little bit of help.
Perhaps this is the time to let yourself put down some of those defences a bit and speak to your family. It doesn't have to be your kids - is there someone else in your family who would lend an ear? I am sure they would want to help even if they didn't know how.
If no-one in your family, then you can also give BeyondBlue a call on 1300 22 4636. The people on the line are very supportive and will listen to your story and what you have to say.
Otherwise, I am a little bit worried that your GP appointment is so far away. Can you see any one else in the meantime if they are part of a wider practice? It is important that you don't change your medication until you speak to your GP about it because changes to our medication can cause a lot of side effects including worsening mood.
I hope you feel comfortable replying here. We would love to help you out.
James
