Feel like I’ll never get better

[Kookaburra2001]

At this point I don’t have the energy to try

I’m exhausted

I don’t wanna try it’s tooo painful

I cried earlier when it was too painful to try and do the right thing aka take care of myself instead of just binge eating and doing nothing but watching Fave shows and that release from the crying helped me shower and go shopping but it’s not enough and The release didn’t last long like may 6 hours before I started binge again

aha help advice ?

imma sleep not so sorry won’t be replying for around 12 hours

[white knight]

Hi, welcome

I hope you are having at least a little Xmas cheer.

Some challenges with depression comes back to conventional remedies. They are-

Proper diagnosis

Agreeable medication and dosage under supervision

Setting up your life to maximise your chances of recovery. Includes removal of toxic people and inviting kind people in.

Items for distraction- hobbies, sports, interests.

Maximise sleep and sleep
routine

Ongoing therapy as required

Career/environment change

Good diet and at least a little exercise

A pet

Removal of financial stress

I won't complicate it any further. The basics as of the above will enhance your life no doubt. It might take time so persist.

Finally. For inspiration while lying in bed google-

YouTube Prem Rawat Maharaji appreciate

And many more of Maharajis videos.

Repost anytime

TonyWK

[Truc]

Hi Kookaburra2001

I dont know what the situation you are encountering now, but i think quite get it because I also had a smilar experience before. I dont know what you mean you dont wanna try because you run out of energy, i dont know if it is about social life and hard to go out, to make friends... So I just give a general idea here and i hope it matched with ur saying. Actually, im not that social, i usually go home and do almost everything alone before, but now i have more friends and chit chat with other people easier, because I want to learn to talk and interact with them, people usually say motivation will lead to your action so they watch those motivational speechs a lot, but somehow it is actually the opposite, actions lead to motivation, when you do not feel like doing something, but when you do it let say about 10 mins, you will feel you want to do more and without stopping, taken me as an example, I do not want to do exercises everyday, boring and tiring, but when I do it vigorously about just 3 or 4 mins, my body just move by itself and I mean the motivation will be automatically created, the hard one is the first step, but just a few mins I think you and me can, even a baby wants something they do not fear to fall when they walk toward the object, when you have goal and pass first few mins of a thing, the motivation will appear i suppose. And you know, we make mistakes everyday a lot and we also didn't notice, but I think it is good, if we have no more mistake in life, I think we may be a god already.


Furtheremore, I think everyone is getting better everyday about something, even you dont do anything on that day, for example, if I just watch netflix every day, I still learn something new such as facts or information from the movies or a philosophy the director wanted to convey to audiences, thats also getting betterin term of knowledge, or i dont do anything but just lying down, still good to me, i learn the feeling of people who are bedridden, so you and me are getting better every day, it is just we didn't notice and give a bit compliment for ourselves.

[Kookaburra2001]

I need to work on items for distraction, maximise sleep and sleep routine, honestly need to work in getting more therapy which I’m about to do horse riding for disabled and volunteer for them after the holidays so wish me luck getting back on a horse!, I don’t have no therapy I have access to a lot but bc it’s school holidays it’s harder to find it and can’t do proper Dbt group for 6 months, also ofc to work on diet and exercise I can’t empathise enough how much my life would change if I ate better and exercised so I really gotta work on that to make my life easier (in the long run!)

wish me luck

i just gotta do some shit to better myself

and cry more when pain gets too intense which it does a lot and maybe exercise if I can’t cry, and also belly breathing try this thing that I do and do it when I get overwhelmed. I sing a lot when hurt too

I feel hopeless but I have to keep trying

idk what else to say but idc I said enough to your reply it’s all I could say and then I said more stuff imma just press send

[Kookaburra2001]

What I mean is I don’t feel like trying to help myself better myself bc it’s so stressful and it’s easier to stay in my bubble and keep binge eating and ignoring reality and how hurt I really am feeling

I’ll reply more later or maybe not but thank you for what u said it was helpful

[Kookaburra2001]

I wanna get better

I feel like yeah I wanna get betyer

but making the steps to actually get to better and going through pain and hell to get there isn’t what I wanna do

leaving my comfort zone isn’t what I wanna do when whenever I leave it I get so overwhelmed and I end up binge eating anyways which ruins my mental health progress

so if there’s something I can do to replace the binge eating let me know aha

i Guess exercise it’s just I need something immediate ya know when it gets that bad

feom the top of my head I could probably vent here, cry it out, try to see my friends, distract myself with favourite shows

its just I feel so addicted to food... like I have no hope that I can get past this with just my mind (without medication like a medicinal stimulants) but I’ll try Ill think of something to distract with and try to just do it think to myself ok I have to not binge, I have to choose recovery it’s what’s best for me, it’s crucial for my mental health recovery and physical health! Do it for yourself and get better start a new life keep going!
you will get there but for now sit with the pain, and take some deep breathes, and go find something else to do and at least to 100 star jumps before I do said activity or just exercise as said activity, get out the house even. Idk something productive. Idk if watching my favourites shows would work but they’re really comforting but Idk if that’s healthy

[Truc]

Hi Kookaburra

Hi Kookaburra2001

Ill share my story because I think it is more relevant to me and also maybe you can get something out of it, before, I was still studying in university, I made mistakes, some people dont mind and encourage me and some people scolded me, I did feel upset, but somehow when I recalled, did they mean the bad thing ? Actually no they may just want me to get better and avoid some serious mistakes, and I wonder why they raised their voice up ? When I took the timeout to think, hmm... Actually they did not do that on purpose, it can be various reasons, because they have different back ground in life, the way they behave is also different from me but it is just they acted subconsciously, or they worry about the facility of the university, some facilities are expensive and sponsored, if I broke it then maybe other students do no have a chance to use it, and I smiled in my mind they are too mature to change the way they behave subconsciously so i smiled and feel grateful about them to teach me things and I understand for them because we are different anyways. I hope it is helpful.

[Truc]

Before I also binge ate and just sat down in front of the laptop all day long, I even asked anyone to come to my place to just do that with me rather than go out with them. It is comforting. But then I realized it isn't good, it is not just about my health anymore, it is also about my friendship, relationship, family and other hobbies, so I think I have to do something to stop the cycle, then I started to reduce the time to watch tv shows, instead of trying to cut it off immediately, I try not to watch from 12 hours in to just 8 hours and 6..5...4 step by step like that when I feel comfortable with my new limit. For the eating, I just noticed when I feel bored and do not have anything meaningful or valued to do as helping people or working, my appetite will be increased, when our brain into working mode, we do not think much about eating or other type of pleasure much, I thibk because our brain is focused on different things, before, I did applied a job to help my friend out as a builder assistant, i did not take money, because i feel the job help me more than I help the job, from that working something practical have made me feel less appetite and not much time to watch tv shows. And motivation to do that is because I care myself, my friends, my family,...etc. I hope it is helpful

[white knight]

Hi kookaburra

You said plenty, replied wonderfully.... You know your challenges so good luck.

TonyWK