Feel like depression has wasted my life

[Taylz2029]

Interested to hear other people’s opinion on this.

After recently turning 30, for some reason it has prompted me to evaluate everything in my life. I have been struggling recently with depression, and fighting the need to go on medication after a negative experience.

I have this overwhelming feeling that depression has and will waste the best years of my life. I can’t get motivated to do the things I want to do, and I don’t have the confidence to try new things.

I used to swim, play team sports, go out and meet new people. Now I’m terrified to do any of those things. I feel so sad that my depression has robbed me of that, and I feel like I will get old and be disappointed in my life because I haven’t done what I wanted to do.

Has anyone had these feelings? I am consumed by these thoughts but do not have the willpower to change anything. I still want to sleep all day and I feel no joy from anything.

I hold down a full time job but I don’t enjoy it like I used to. I don’t try when I’m there because I just don’t care about anything anymore.

I went to a therapist and that did help a little but it’s very expensive and he wanted me to go every week.

I don’t know what the answer is and I don’t know where to go from here.

[Billyc]

Hi

Ive had similar feelings.

But I’m 40 now, so you have ten years on me to find yourself and your passion.

Ive had a lot of hit and misses, and I’ve spent a lot of time avoiding my issues, which inevitably caught up with me, so yes I’m some ways I too feel like I’ve wasted oppurtunities..

i will say though that this for me is not nesesarily a bad thing.. after all it’s the only way I’ve learnt how to do things better.

It can be crippling, so I’d encourage you to continue your efforts to manage depression. I feel, like you do that it will always Be there. If you can start finding and acknowledging the little wins along the way, stop and pat yourself on the back.. it helps remember the successes in your life when you look back on your journey,

hope that helps

Best

[Nevergoodenough]

Hi Tayl, I can relate to how you feel exactly and spend many, many hours feeling like this. I am always looking backwards and getting into an even bigger internal rage with myself. I’m the last person in the world who could advise you about what to do because I have no idea. I just wanted to acknowledge your post and hope that you find peace with yourself in the future.