Depression and Anger

[bluewater]

Hi everyone Im newly signed up but have been around for a while!

I've had an awful two years and wont go into it all but have been diagnosed with PTSD and generalised Anxiety Disorder.

So far my medication have got me through but i know they are only short term and now im becoming angry!

I've been prescribed another medication but am scared to take them due to other issues.

my main problem is i appear to be getting worse and everything feels like its snowballing not getting better even with the help of my psychologist!

Im snapping and yelling at my children to the point its upsetting me more and my anger is getting worse! Im honestly standing on the line of seeing how much I can take and giving up!!!

[Doolhof]

Hi Bluewater,

It certainly does sound like you are getting close to the end of your endurance. If you have been around for a while, you may have read many threads similar to your own story.

Is there any chance you can take a break? Some of us think the world will collapse if we disappear for a while from all our usual activities.

A couple of years ago I was on the verge of a breakdown. My Dr. put me in hospital for two weeks. It saved me. I don't have children, so I do recognise they are very important and will need to be cared for. Is there anyone who could look after them for you, even for a weekend?

Do you know what is making you so angry? My anger had me almost exploding! I had to find ways to deal with it, to understand what was causing it and how to release it in a healthy manner. For me it was taking an axe to a car wreck! I don't always have one of those available though.

Writing about my anger helped to some degree. Physical activity was more effective. I would clean the house vigorously, scrub the tiles, garden, pulling up weeds is great, as is ripping paper up. Just getting out and going for a fast paced walk or run if you are capable helps.

Having children you may not be able to leave the house, so try and find stuff you can do indoors.

Some people find long, slow, deep breaths help. How you manage to do that when you are about to explode is a bit of an art form!

You have probably read the following suggestions on this forum:

Go back and chat with your Dr. explain your issues with the medication

Seek out a counsellor/psychologist.

Use the phone help line 1300 22 4636

Get out of the house if you can

Tell your children that you love them! Explain that you have a lot of pain right now and you are sorry for yelling at them.

Google Anger Management and see if anything there will help you. Check out the resources here as well.

Hope some of this helps you to hang in there and find ways of becoming who you want to be.

From Mrs. Dools

[Neil_1]

Hi there Blue Water

Thank you for coming to Beyond Blue and also I’d like to welcome you as well.

I’m going to start up with a total song from Kate Bush and Peter Gabriel, way back in the day – it’s a beautiful, brilliant and even somewhat emotional song “Don’t Give Up”. If you don’t know it – google it or You Tube it, or whatever the kids of today do to see songs from yesteryear.

The meds you mention that you’re taking have got you through – which is brilliant – but with meds, if you keep on taking them, then they aren’t short-term, unless you’re GP has indicated this to you. However, taking meds is just one arrow that we need to have in our quiver of arsenal to help fight the demons that our mind throws up at us.

Seeking out a psychologist is also another thing to add, which you’ve already done – but this can be a source of struggle at times as well; as you may feel that you’re not getting the results that you hoped for in these sessions. It can take some time and shopping around to find someone who you really feel a connection with – although maybe you have that, but you’re still getting these other emotional feelings of anger.

Do you find that you’re getting “any” time to yourself? This is another key/crucial thing to help us as well. If we’re constantly bombarded with the chores of daily life and having to tend and care for our children the whole time without a break, this can really cause a bad effect for us as well. And this is despite the love and adoration that we have for them; which makes this seem even worse for us if we find ourselves getting angry with them.

It’s not their fault, but you’ve got to know that it isn’t your fault either. You didn’t ask for these symptoms to affect you – it’s happened and that’s the real unfortunate thing about it.

Do you have a partner or spouse who may be able to help out at home?

Are there options where you might be able to get some “me-time” so you can find some opportunity to de-stress and just get away for a short while?

I’d really love to hear back from you.

Neil

[Mal50]

Hello Bluewater, I absolutely sympathise with you. I've been there myself. After years and years of abuse I bottled it all up, and tried to suppress it, but it turned into an inner rage that I could no longer control. I underwent regression therapy which helped greatly.

Hang in there buddy. You're on the road to recovery.

[topsy_]

Just a funny little story. When my husband gave up cigarettes I read a newspaper article that said people giving up smoking often get very angry, which is a sign of depression.

Sure enough that's what happened. I was sitting at the table one morning & commented he seemed really angry since he'd given up smoking.

He's a tall guy & was standing on the other side of the table. He bent over & banged his arm/hand on the table - once for every word - "I AM NOT ANGRY" !!!!

It was the funniest thing I'd seen in ages. He was totally clueless!

My point is anger can be a part of depression. I wish you well & hope you feel happier soon. (Hubby needed ADs).

Lyn.