Hi rachisdepressed,
First, I want to let you know that nobody is wasting their time to read and write to people who need to talk
You re not feeling very well at the moment and you need to talk about it, good on you for reaching out for help 🙂
It can be tough to feel that your friends are abandoning you, I completely understand why you feel so down. Unfortunately, this happens quite a lot in life, you make friends, you go your separate ways, you make other friends, etc... . At least you have that friend who stayed, she is more important than those who left. Maybe they were not real friends. You know, I think it works exactly the same way with boyfriends/ girlfriends, you d better be alone than with someone who does not put any efforts in or who does not really want to be with you.
I don't know how old you are but sometimes there can be that gap between parents and their children when they enter teenage years. I think it is mostly due to a lack of communication and understanding from both sides.
Sometimes teenagers/ young adults are really good at hiding their feelings thus, parents cannot guess what is going on in their children's lives. Why don't you try to talk to them? I understand that talking to them face to face might make you feel nervous so what about writing a letter? leave it somewhere for them to find while you re away from the house to give them some time to read it.
All the best
Dot
