crying too easily, depression and anxiety

[melhun79]

Hi,

i am 37 years old and have been through the ringer a fair few times. I feel like no matter what i do, i can never get out of this rutt i am in.

Went to see the GP, using the K10 it worked out i was in a high range so he prescribed me medication to tackle the depression. I started taking the tablets and found my crying for no reason had stopped for a while, then even whilst i was on the tablets i started to again so i took myself off the tablets. Now i am back to crying for no reason, even seeing a commercial on the T.V. with sad music makes me tear up.

My GP recommended me a Physc, had one session and then she went on leave for a month, i haven't booked another appointment with her yet. didn't really gel with her to be honest. Not sure if i can just get my GP to give me a referral to another physc.

I work very long hours to keep myself busy. I seem to fly off the handle quite easily with my partner and then minutes later i am back to normal. Im not sure if my GP is taking this very seriously. he seems to just want to write a script for medication and pass me to a physc. My appointments with him never last more than 10min. I have read posts here, on how people have spent a while taking to their GP so makes me wonder about my GP as well.

my life so far has been a struggle from a very young age and still continue to struggle. I dont really know how to talk to my partner without worrying him. So thats why i am on here, where no-one knows me and my family and hopefully wont judge me.

I feel like i am alone in this world. Even though i have a great partner, great father and my work is going very well with a successful career. Still feel like i am alone. I sometimes cry myself to sleep. (even writing this post, i am welling up). I worry alot and avoid groups of people.

-Mel

[MsPurple]

HI Mel and welcome to the forums

Sorry to hear you are going through a rough patch. I personally know how frustrating the journey to good mental health can be, but I'll tell you the journey is worth taking. Everyday fighting it is easier than every day losing to it and going deeper into the dark tunnel of depression.

You say you don't think you are meshing well with you psych. It is normal to sometimes see someone that you don't click with. Sometimes it is hard to mesh well after the first session. Do you think it is because of the whole opening up and getting to know you faze or do you think you just don't click? If you don't think you click you can ask your GP to refer you to a new psych. It happens more than people think. I saw one I didn't click with and decided to find a new one. For me it was a good switch.

Have you considered doing meditation. For me I find my racing mind keeps me up at night and makes my anxiety worse. I find meditation before bed helps me to focus on the moment and stop the racing thoughts. I use an iphone app called calm however I know others use smiling minds and headspace.

MP

[geoff]

hello Mel, you won't be judged because that's not how this site operates, and if for some reason it did, then no one would want to post a comment, so please don't worry and remember what you are experiencing so have many other people.
I must say that I also tear up when a song is played that strikes me where it hurts, that's depression, and I say depression as it maybe given any other label, but I think you know what I mean.
It's always a nervous feeling meeting your psych for the first time, simply because how you know you are going to like them, maybe this can be determined by their characteristics, the way they look, how they are dressed or simply by how they talk, but I think that you need two visits to finally make up your mind, however if she has a month off then you need to make a decision whether 4 weeks is too long and normally it is.
I would consider trying to find another GP, you will need them by your side on all occasions, so click on 'Get Support' and scroll down there will be a link there, and these doctors are aligned to BB and specialise in MI.
Working long hours may seem to help you through the day but you must be careful that you won't all of a sudden fall into a heap from exhaustion caused by how you are feeling. Geoff.