Controlled by mental illness

[Failing_wonderfully]

My life is controlled by mental illnesses I try not to let it control me but no matter how hard I fight the anxiety and depression it stays. I have suffered anxiety and depression since I was 16. I had tried to make something of my life as a teenager by finishing school and getting a job but since I moved out with my partner 5 years ago I haven’t been able to work or study again since. The anxiety makes it hard for me to leave the house and socialise with strangers. I have hardy any independence and rely heavily on my partner to get me to appointments or even to travel to see my family an hour away as I’m terrified to catch a bus on my own. I’ve been on medication and seeing social workers and phychologists for the last 6 years with only very small improvement. I’m trying to look after myself and get all the professional help that is available to me I can get but doesn’t seem enough. I constantly worry about the future I will have as a result of my mental health and the toll it takes on my partner. Anyone else in a similar situation or have any advice?

[Mitch43]

Hey mate;

Whilst my situation was a lot more mild, I couldn't take public transport or organize appointments either until about 2 years ago (around turning 21). What worked for me was taking the bus with my partner and or friends. Just a few stops at first. Then taking it on my own with one friend waiting to receive me.

I now ride public transport nearly every day (to and from work). Admittedly I was scared beyond reason but, with a solid support network (and good medication balance) it was possible to take little steps that made a big difference toward my self worth and independence.

if nothing else I hope this gets across that you're not alone in your struggles, even if my coping methods are unrealistic for you. Keep trying your best mate!

Regards

Mitch