Can't cope ....its to hard

[Ausdog]

I can't see the light any more hell
I can barely see the screen my eyes are so filled with tears. The tears are the only constant, everyone thinks I am doing great, but it takes so much to put a smile and a facade. I can't play nice any more....I just can not do it any more. I don't want to feel this any more. 

[Sophie_M]

Hey Ausdog,

Thank you so much for reaching out here tonight, we know that this can be an incredibly difficult thing to do when you're feeling so low. We are so sorry to hear how much you're struggling, and how difficult it must be to put on a smile and a brave face for those around you. But please know that this is a safe space for you to express your true thoughts and feelings, and our wonderful community is here to provide you with as much support, advice and conversation as you need through this- you're not alone here.

Our Support Service is also trying to reach out to you via email as we're worried about you. 
Please know that there is always somewhere to turn in dark moments like these, and help is always available to you, whether it's from our kind mental health counsellors at Beyond Blue (1300 22 4636) or our friends at Lifeline (13 11 14) or the Suicide Call Back Service (1300 659 467). The lovely counsellors are here for to you 24/7, as often as you need during overwhelming moments like these.

We hope that you can find some solace in these forums from our caring community, and the kind support and advice they can offer. If you would like to post further, please feel free to tell us more about what's on your mind and how we can best help support you through this.
 

[Ausdog]

Thank you. I am about to call 000
Its hard.

[geoff]

Hello Ausdog, can I welcome you to the site, and yes, we know exactly how you are feeling, there never seems to be any escape at times, but pleased if you can call 000, or perhaps you can give the police a call, they will take you to the hospital if you are in danger of harming yourself.

It doesn't matter whether you've seen the light before because we are tempted to have a relapse at any time and how strong you were before can be broken by something you had not expected, our sympathy pours out to you in every way.

Please let us know what happens and if you feel strong enough come back to us.

Take care.

Geoff.

[Ausdog]

: I have a girlfriend who oves me and who I love, a son who adores me yet I can't keep going. It makes no sense but I am tired of living. Everyday I think of ending my life, I smile and go through the motions of being "normal " it gets harder though. I just don't know what to do anymore. I don't understand why I am like this i want to be happy and I try but it doesn't work

[Sophie_M]

Hey Ausdog,

Thanks for reaching out,

We're sorry to hear how low you're feeling today. We can hear that you're very uncertain as to why you feel this way. Please know others have also felt a similar way and you are not alone in this experience. Have you spoken to anyone close to you or a mental health professional recently? They might be able to offer you some coping strategies you haven't tried before. We can see that you reaching out today is a great step to seeking support and please know with time these feelings will pass.

We'd urge you to contact Lifeline. They understand what it’s like to have thoughts about suicide and are there to listen and help you. The Lifeline telephone call service is available 24/7 on 13 11 14. We are also trying to get in touch with you via email.

Please keep checking in with us Ausdog.

[smallwolf]

Hi.

Just want to share a little of my story. I hope it helps.

Little things for many years that by themselves appear to have no effect can have a cumulative effect after some time. Each hit (for me) damaged a shield - that is how I describe it. The shield provides some sort of protection to how I feel about myself, and when repaired is not quite the same. After a while, one of those hits eventually go through the shield and I get to one of the low points.

The other thing is whether there is someone we can talk to about what we are going through. While I am married, I felt I could not talk about these things. At least until I got to that low point. And so I held all that "pain" (?) inside.

These day I see a psychologist every 2 weeks and a psychiatrist.

(There are other things going on that have a impact on my mental health that are irrelevant here.) When I started talking to a professional and find out I have depression, anxiety and suicidal thoughts it became a problem to solve. The other person who listens to me helps me to find ways to look at situations differently, any ways to changing my thoughts. Yes, it is taking me a long time and I have worked out a way to accept it.

I don't know if you have anyone to talk or not, or whether you have started that journey. And yet in writing here you have started that journey. There is only courage and strength in talking about what you are going through, I hope you will come back to tell me a little more of your story. And maybe allow me to walk with you or part of journey while you are here.

[amberlite]

do you have a pet dog also?

I have a nice old dog he's so helpful to me, even if I'm unwell I know he is dependant on me and it helps me to motivate and do his water and fill his bowl and scruff his back. I ask because of your handle name, thats all!

[Ggrand]

Dear Ausdog...

I am sorry you are struggling so much with depression?..

It’s really nice to hear that you have a loving partner and a son who adores you...and you love and adore them both, by the sounds of your words....something so worthy of you finding happiness in your beautiful little family...

I’m wondering if the rush and bustle of everyday life is getting to hard for you to manage..maybe a change might help.... A nice peaceful walk with your partner and son in the coolness of the evening, to help you to relax and distract those negative and unhealthy thoughts you’re having....doing something different, seeing different things, hearing different things is like a small change or holiday for your mind to think on other things...

Ausdog...Please reach out to your Dr. for some help...Most Drs can help and understand how you’re feeling if you open up about your thoughts and feelings.....you’re very important to your lovely partner and beautiful son...they need you so much...and love you deeply...

Do you have a little Grounding box?...Its a little box, which you could a few pictures of your beautiful son and partner in, and a CD of your favourite music, maybe a toy of your son’s..a card which has been sprayed with your partner’s favourite perfume...a special little treat you like to eat...

The idea of the Grounding box....is if you’re feeling overwhelmed with unhealthy thoughts.....is to sit somewhere quiet..open the box then start to hold, play, look, listen ....at all the beautiful things that you have in your life that mean a lot to you and that you love...Hopefully by doing that..it will bring your thoughts back into the here and now...and off those unhealthy thoughts....

Ausdog....Their is a light at the end of the tunnel....Please try hard to believe that...and never loose your hope in finding your way towards it...

We are here for you...holding onto you with our support and care...

My kindest and most caring thoughts.. Dear Ausdog

Grandy..

[Guest_4643]

Hello Ausdog, welcome.

I'm sorry you're struggling a lot, we're here for you. Are you safe?