I have recently started dating my ex boyfriend and things are going well between us, obviously it will take some time to build trust and get back what we had but I find I start doubting myself when i'm around my friends who witnessed how upset and depressed I was due to how my ex treated me when we broke up.
I off loaded a lot to my friends about what happened in my relationship and now I somewhat regret telling them all the bad stuff because now I feel like they will always hold that against my boyfriend and never be happy for me because they think he will hurt me again.
He has really turned his life around and is very sorry for what he did. I know I over think everything! and I have to do what's best for me. I am much happier with my partner back in my life, I just wish everything could go back to how they were. I see a future with my boyfriend, and I'd like to think that people will be happy for me, not thinking "I can't believe she went back to that douche bag"
Thinking about what happened in the past does make me anxious but I also want to move on with my life. I know I don't need to prove to everyone that I'm making the right decision but I just wish there was a way for them to see that he does make me happy. I feel like my friends are waiting for him to "stuff up" again and know I don't even bring him up in conversation because I know their thoughts on him.
If anyone has any advice on this it would be greatly appreciated.
Thanks
TD
