Sense of Impending Doom

[Birdy77]

Hello everyone.

I have been really struggling today, and I thought writing here might help.

What I am about to describe may sound weird, but it is a true feeling for me. I wondered if anyone else reading has experience of it?

Every now and then, I get this terrible sense of impending doom.

Like, everything, everything, is about to go horribly wrong.

I have realised that I have been having these feelings semi-frequently for the last few years.

A few years ago I experienced an intense trauma in my life, and I'm wondering now if there are triggers, like little, tiny things, that possibly happened before the trauma, that I am not necessarily conscious of, that again happen now, in my life, and set me off on this spiral of doom.

This morning, the feeling of impending doom had me thinking that the police were likely to turn up at my door and take me to prison.

My life is good.

I am safe.

In my house.

Consistently not committing crimes.

And yet ... occasionally this feeling that the world is conspiring against me and everything good is about to implode just takes over.

I understand that it's irrational, but there's something that sends me in a spiral, and anything simple can bring me back up that spiral as well, like a text from a friend, or something tiny like that. It brings me back to safety.

I just wanted to put this out there in case anyone else feels this way. I want you to know that you're not alone, and I thought I might feel some relief voicing this in a safe space.

I'm not really looking for advice or anything, just kind of wanted a place to talk about it, not just for me but for anyone who experiences this.

I feel so vulnerable.

I mentioned something similar to my dad once and he said it's because I have a guilty conscience.

🌻birdy

[Guest8901]

Oh dear Birdy, I'm so sorry to hear this. Actually I'm a mess myself right now, so am not in a frame of mind where I can offer advice or support.

But as this is your long awaited personal support thread, I had to post and let you know I'm listening, and care very much.

And now that I've posted here, I wont lose you.

Btw thanks for dropping by my thread the other day to show off your new gear from the gift voucher I left for you. I am reading my thread and appreciate the posts. But for some reason I cannot bring myself to post there.

Thinking of you and sending a few more gifts your way. 🍷🍹 🍌🍇🍉🍒🍓 🌹🌺 🌾 🌽 🎁 🎶

Amanda

[Croix]

Dear Birdy~

I quite believe you are consistently not a master criminal, and I'm sure law enforcement would agree.

I don't know which element of PTSD, anxiety and depression leads me at times (more frequent in the past than now) to have that feeling that everything is about to go wrong, and like you my mind conjures up scenarios that simply haven't and won't happen, but frightening for all that. Being fired for some unlikely offense being such a story more than once.

I came to the conclusion my mind starts out with that foreboding feeling - I'm not sure why - and then makes up a reason to justify it. Weird? Yup. I also came to the conclusion it was probably a reaction to pressure in my life, and unpleasant or taxing events in the present made it more likely to manifest.

Mind you if you did have a guilty conscience I'm sure we would all like to hear the reason 🙂

Croix (the guilt-free walrus)

[Ggrand]

Hello Dear Birdy..

Im sorry your struggling so much with the feeling of intending doom...I once uttered those words to my psychologist, when she asked me why I cannot go for a walk or go out to the next town on my own. or sit at a cafe on my own...I can relate and understand your feelings, my Psych said to me that, that feeling is consistent with very high anxiety,

Wondering Birdy If you have seen your gp to get a referral to a psychologist, and get you a mental health care plan started, please Birdy, do you think you are able to do this for you? maybe speaking to someone professional might be able to find out what’s triggering these feelings...

I think that anxiety makes us feel vulnerable, it’s a horrible feeling Birdy and I’m sorry your experiencing it....

I’m sorry I’m not much help to you atm Birdy but I would so much like to try to support you if I can....

Love and hugs...💜🤗..

Grandy....

[Peppermintbach]

Hi lovely birdy,

It breaks my heart to see you so down but I’m also relieved that you’re opening up a little. You sound so shaken and rattled...I just want to give you a hug...

The deep trauma you experienced must have left quite an emotional mark on you...

For what it may be worth, just know that you are safe here...as Mandy said, we are here listening...we are all in your corner, holding you up gently...

If it helps in the slightest, I always have feelings of foreboding...I’m not sure if it’s for the same reasons as you but for me, it’s because I don’t trust that good things will last...that’s what is at the core for me...

In my case, I don’t trust that people will stick around through thick and thin, I don’t trust that good things will happen and if something good happens, I wait for the inevitable bad to come...my worldview, real or imagined, can be summed up as “good things don’t last.”

Happiness is transient/fleeting, and that’s at best, in my eyes...

I don’t say this to discourage you...I say this simply to express you’re not alone in your feelings even if our reasons aren’t strictly the same. Granted, maybe I’ve completely misunderstood and have missed the mark entirely...feel free to let me know if I have...

So, as I said, you’re not alone...

Even if I’ve misunderstood, even if I don’t get it...I’m sitting here with you because that’s what friends do for friends...

Love,

Pepper xoxox

[Peace068]

Do not feel alone, I too have those feelings but mine are connected to death. A lot of the time I feel like if I leave my home I may not come back. I feel it with my kids also, it is so scary. There are so many examples I could tell you about but I will share two. I was in my car driving and I saw a letterbox, it looked like a gravestone I took it as a sign that I was going to die, I had to pull over and missed my appointment. The other example is I spent loads of money to see my favorite band and waited for months, on the night I again felt like I was going to die that night and could t go. I still re

Birdy77 said:

Hello everyone.

I have been really struggling today, and I thought writing here might help.

What I am about to describe may sound weird, but it is a true feeling for me. I wondered if anyone else reading has experience of it?

Every now and then, I get this terrible sense of impending doom.

Like, everything, everything, is about to go horribly wrong.

I have realised that I have been having these feelings semi-frequently for the last few years.

A few years ago I experienced an intense trauma in my life, and I'm wondering now if there are triggers, like little, tiny things, that possibly happened before the trauma, that I am not necessarily conscious of, that again happen now, in my life, and set me off on this spiral of doom.

This morning, the feeling of impending doom had me thinking that the police were likely to turn up at my door and take me to prison.

My life is good.

I am safe.

In my house.

Consistently not committing crimes.

And yet ... occasionally this feeling that the world is conspiring against me and everything good is about to implode just takes over.

I understand that it's irrational, but there's something that sends me in a spiral, and anything simple can bring me back up that spiral as well, like a text from a friend, or something tiny like that. It brings me back to safety.

I just wanted to put this out there in case anyone else feels this way. I want you to know that you're not alone, and I thought I might feel some relief voicing this in a safe space.

I'm not really looking for advice or anything, just kind of wanted a place to talk about it, not just for me but for anyone who experiences this.

I feel so vulnerable.

I mentioned something similar to my dad once and he said it's because I have a guilty conscience.

🌻birdy

gret that night. Hope this helps in the way that your not alone.

[Guest_623]

Yes, I get this feeling, frequently. It's almost like being claustrophobic. The world feels like it is closing in and no longer have any control over it or the people in it, just along for the ride and where the current takes you. A feeling of dejavu where something really bad is approaching, but where from, and what? But it's there, somewhere, lurking. You are aware of it, or at least the presence of something, but can't prepare for it as the form is unknown. Sounds and people talking become faint, things become slowed down and the surroundings are like looking being underwater. It's the point in the bad horror movies where you become the main character that you were previously yelling at, don't go outside, don't open that door, but you do anyway. And here it comes.

[blondguy]

Hello Birdy

You are not alone with having these thoughts

My psychologist mentioned to me years ago that many of his clients said that there is something wrong....(like yourself Birdy)

My psychologist replied....."so what is disturbing you"?

His clients always replied with 'everything is going well.....so there must be something wrong'

I hope that made some sense Birdy. I was only making a point that many people also think that something must be wrong......because everything is going so well'

You are not irrational at all. This is very common. Sometimes when we have too much quiet time our thoughts can wonder further than we want them to. Its a part of being human.....all of our minds wonder

you are not alone with a brain that thinks harder than it should Birdy.....I am one of those people too!

I hope that Thursday treats you well Birdy 🙂

my kindest

Paul

[Guest_623]

I wouldn't recognise something to say it was actually going well. It's either indifferent or going badly, but not surprisingly so.

[baet123]

Hello Birdy,

We all have our ups and downs as we all know and I am sorry you are feeling the way you are at this point in time.

I think what your feeling is a true feeling for you and one felt by millions of people around the globe. I sort of feel as humans we are programmed to fear the worst or when things are going good think that something in the not to distant future is going to come up and interfere with our lives. What your feeling is completely normal and should be talked about more but unfortunately it isn't talked about nearly enough.

It is good to hear that you are safe at present which is important.

Life for most of us isn't easy and most things in life worth doing and things that are meaningful to us are a struggle. I think living and taking each day as it comes is important. In life we are always going to have our days where we don't feel to well or we struggle but that for me makes the good days that much better.

All the best Birdy and trust me, you aren't alone!!!!

Baet123