I have come to the realisation, that I need to be more proactive in my life. Mainly around my social circle. Looking back I now realise, the reason I behaved in such strange ways was because I was lonely. I just didn't really know it at the time, because I had nothing to compare it to. I have identified some groups I could reach out to, but my anxiety has prevented me from accessing them in the past. Anyway, wish me luck anyone who reads this, for the more religious of you; prayer for me.
