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[Acnalb]

Hello i am new here.

I really dont know what to say. But all i can say is, i am really confused and scared of my anxiety.

[beingbyrne]

Hello there,

Welcome and good on you posting. You are not alone. Anxiety is a very scary condition and I hear you even if you don't say much. But the good news is .....there is hope.

I'd like to know a bit more about you. Have you seen a doctor about this? Have you tried medication? or therapy?

They can be helpful..

I hope to hear from you soon

Sending hugs your way

[Croix]

Dear Acnalb~

Like Beingbyrne I'd like to make you feel welcome here at the Forum. I can understand it is quite a hard thing to talk to strangers, and often takes a conversation going back and forth several times to get everything down.

I have had anxiety (plus other things) for a very long time and have learned ways of dealing with it, which together with medical and personal family support means I live a pretty god life nowadays.

Anxiety, and associated things - like panic attacks - can be really frightening, and the confusion by not reacting to things as you think you should is pretty hard to live with.

In order to be able to talk with you and maybe give more specific advice it would be really great if you could say more about yourself, your anxiety, and your life. Beingbyrne has already started asking these things too.

There is a lot of help in the Forum, if you were to browse around here you would find many with symptoms you may recognize, you will be able to see how they coped. There is also specific information on anxiety and other matters in The Facts menu above.

Support, as I have found, is pretty important. Do you have anyone you can talk with, who can understand, or at least be on your side and try to help?

I really hope you write again and talk more

Croix

[Acnalb]

Hello beingbryne and croix.

Thank you for welcoming me and thank you for the advice. I have been experiencing anxiety and panic attack for more than 6 months i think. And the doctor gave me medication for my anxiety but i really got bad side effect that make my anxiety worse. I been having intrusive thought that i never had before so i believe its from the medicine side effect. It was really really a bad thought and got me so scared that i made myself so distance from my son. And i dont wanna hurt anyone or my son just incase i can't handle whats going on in my thoughts. And i even think sometimes or ask my self why is this happening or am i going crazy. Yes i have seen psychologist about this but told me that we are going to work with my panick attack first and not my intrusive thoughts coz she said that comes with my anxiety. And the GP gave me anti depressant which i havent taken yet as i am scared of the side effect because of my experience from the other medication.

I have talked to this about my husband but i didn't get any support specially with my intrusive thoughts. As he said i am being ridiculous. So everytime i have this episode running on my mind that i am gonna hurt someone or my son i dont tell him coz i don't wanna upset him or upset my self which i am already upset.

I had talked to my psychologist about this too. But my psychologist says theres so many happening in my mind and wants to work out with my panic attack first but didnt gave me advice what to do if i have intrusive thoughts again.

It's really scary and sometimes i feel like alone coz i havent talk to anyone about this because i dont want my friend to judge me or stay away from me.

But i guess talking to stranger here is much better.

Thank you very much

Acnalb39

[Croix]

Dear Acnalb~

Thank you for saying a little more. It helps to understand the things you have to face. I can relate to some of it because I have PTSD, anxiety, have had bouts of depression and sometimes suffer from panic attacks.

I'm glad you have been seeing medical help, even though the meds did not agree with you. I have been taking meds for very many years and have experienced those with bad side effects, those I thought did nothing, and more recently those with a beneficial effect.

My experience is that medication and treatments in general need adjustment, changes and tweaking to find the right balance, so please don't be discouraged by an unsatisfactory start. While some can get by without meds, I am one of the many who can't progress without them.

You sound very worried by intrusive thoughts, and from what you say they may involve over-reacting or maybe even hurting a loved one.

I sense you would be happier if your psychologist dealt with those thoughts straight away. I'm not sure, perhaps dealing with the causes of the panic attacks might help with the thoughts as well - I'm just guessing.

All I can say is if it was I then I would continue to discuss this with your psychologist and emphasize your fears - write them down if you have difficulty explaining.

Not being able to talk to anyone about how you are is a great pity. There is a 24/7 help line here (number above) which you are welcome to ring anytime. A human professional voice can help when feeling isolated.

I do hope you continue to post and talk here

Croix