Have been searching the net and thank goodness found beyond blue site. I am a 50 year old lady. Had severe anxiety attacks and used meds to help me through in my late 20's and early 30's. Decided back then to learn about this horrible condition.So I read books and talked to trusted people and over a couple of years (which at the time felt like forever) I came through it. At my worst I remember being in such a state that I couldn't remember how to drive and I was driving at the time! I couldn't remember what to do when I got to an intersection. I remember heaving when I tried to eat, climbing under the covers and crying because I didn't know what was wrong with me and my then Dr not being any help at all. My worst came when I was lying next to my husband in bed and told him I was going to die that night and he would have to raise our 2 girls on his own. Even though he didn't understand he tried. That was the night I promised myself that I had to help me. It wasn't easy. Far from it. My best motivation was our girls. I had to get up and get them to school. I slowly started to do things that I had been avoiding. I read and with a supportive Dr and meds found my way back.
Now roll forward nearly 20 years later and 'IT' HAS RETURNED!!!!!!! I had a HUGE panic attack when I was overseas in September last year. I thought I was going to faint and to say the waves of ??? that were going through my body was unpleasant is an understatement.For days afterwards I would felt anxious and somehow get myself through, holding my now husband of 29 years hand. Since then I have been to my Dr twice. These feelings are awful. She thinks they are hormonal based due to my age and offered to put my on HRT. I said no thank you at this stage. My 2nd visit she gave me a med to take which gave me the a HUGE attack and I vowed I won't take them again.
The thing is I can go weeks and be okay and then WHAM like today had such bad anxiety.Where I had such overwhelming waves of I guess adrenalin going through my body. Felt panicky but I wasn't doing anything to cause it. These are the ones that scare me the most as I don't know what is causing them so I start to think something else more sinister is happening.
I know I can do this with no meds. I have done it before. I just need some advice, support and guidance from you lovely people.
Sorry for my long post. Thank you for any help. Susie
