Hi Kreckle and welcome to the forums
I am glad you have written to share, vent and get some support.
I know too well how you feel. I myself have GAD and depression. My boyfriend is very understanding, but sometimes the way he tries to makes me feel better can make me feel worse. I get frustrated when his response is 'others have it worse'. I know that, it makes me feel worse, increases my self hatred and the cycle continues. For him it is helpful because it helps him appreciate what he has and himself, but for me it makes me feel guilty and unworthy. So I know that frustrated feeling.
It sounds like you are unmotivated due to poor self esteem and maybe other personal issues. It can be hard to see a doctor and to feel like you weren't completely listened to can make the experience poor. I myself felt intimidated so I went to a youth mental health service called headspace. Check them out on their website www.headspace.org.au I used their online email service for a while before going in. I know see a psychologist (not at headspace as I am now 26), but I thank headspace for making me realise I am good enough to get the help and support I deserve. You can also see a psychologist outside of headspace, I suggest getting a doctors referal through a mental health plan so medicare will pay for a large chunk of it (or all of it if you find one that bulk bills).
I want to remind you that anyone can be affected by anxiety, depression, other. Any gender, race, sexuality, socio-economic status etc. It doesn't matter if you are popular or lonely, you can still be affected. Some factors can increase your risk, but anyone can be affected. There is nothing to be ashamed about. I have tried to remind myself of this so I don't feel guilty
Hope this has been helpful. I am an open book so if you have any questions feel free to ask
MsP
