I am really sorry to hear that you have been experiencing such intense anxiety and that the people that you've asked for help have not been more understanding. It sounds like what you are experiencing is becoming more and more difficult to cope with. Would you consider making an appointment with your GP or a counsellor to talk through what has been happening? If speaking to someone anonymously feels more manageable, there are a few helplines you can contact that may be an option including the Beyond Blue service.
Different things work for different people, some of these may not be your thing and that is more than okay, but here are some suggestions you may like to try for when things feel really overwhelming or difficult: writing - writing down your worries and thoughts and what is going on can help organise your thoughts and get them out of your system and can help you see your thoughts from a different perspective, being outside in the sun, calling a friend or loved one, listening to your favourite music, washing your face with cold water, having a bath or warm shower, playing with a pet, hugging someone or a pillow, as mentioned before calling a helpline (Lifeline is 13 11 14), making a cup of tea or doing some physical exercise. You may also find grounding techniques helpful - they focus on shifting your focus away from your mind and back onto the present, they can involve controlled breathing techniques, meditation exercises and sensory exercises, it may be worth looking up grounding techniques to have a try.
Please do not hesitate to reach out when you feel up to it. Anxiety can be a very isolating and painful experience and you should not have to bear this alone. We are here to listen and support you. Take care and give yourself the time and space that you need.
