My anxiety might be risking my access to support services

[Haydennn]

I’m currently trying to coordinate access to inpatient care, but I haven’t had to do this on my own before.

Ive been working with my GP, but realising I just don’t know all the questions I should be asking him or any other services I’m speaking with. I’ve also called intake coordinators at private facilities to try and understand why the process is delayed and what other options exist. Each time I call I was provided a tidbit of useful and new information, but also I noted that the humans on the end of the line were understandably struggling with my persistent calls. Today when I tried to call I recieved an automated message, which led me to believe I’m on a DNA list.

I’ve been feeling really anxious about ensuring I coordinate this process to the best of my ability to access the care I need, but today I think I got a bit manic and risked my chances with my preferred provider. I have been respectful and courteous, and have not taken out my frustrations on those I’ve spoken to but still I feel like I was harassing them and felt a lot of shame for trying my best to get myself care.

Has anyone else who’s had to do this type of thing alone felt/ experienced similar? Did it ultimately impact your service access? I’m scared I’ve ruined my chances, so have reached out to a pathways service to help me navigate from here moving forward.

[Sophie_M]

Hi Haydennn,

Thank you for your post to the forums and your bravery and openness in sharing here. It’s a really good place to have come to hear from others. We understand how frustrating accessing mental health services can be at times, it can feel incredibly isolating. Please know we are always here to share. It sounds like a confusing and time consuming process and we applaud your dedication and ensuring that your GP is kept updated as often they are a great first port of call. It's important that during this time you look after yourself as it can be exhausting in calling different providers.

If you want to talk through what you’re feeling at any time, the Beyond Blue Support Line is here for you 24/7 on 1300 22 4636, or online here. It’s ok to reach out when you’re feeling anxious or upset, they can talk you through some ways to find a bit of calm, and then help you to figure out some options for further support.  We’ve included some strategies you might like to have a look at it. We understand you might have been through some of these in the past and it might feel like cold comfort right now, but they’re here in case they do pique your interest: 

• Another thread where the community have shared some strategies for managing anxiety 
• Beyond Blue Article: When your inner critic is giving you a tough time 

Thanks again for sharing. We’re here to listen and offer support, and you never know how your story might help someone else. 

Kind regards, 

Sophie M