Job Issues and the flow on

[NotSoSilent]

Hi forum,
First time poster and not really sure what to expect.

About 6 months ago I was placed under investigation for a work matter and it has dragged on and on and on. They have recently advised me that the recommendation is termination. There is a process I need to follow to plead my case etc.

While all of this has been happening I have continued to go to work everyday, but it is taking a huge toll on me and my family overall. I am now petrified that in this current virus pandemic that no one will be hiring so I won't find a job, we will be homeless (I'm the main money earner), I'll have to sell my car and and and... the thoughts keep coming.

Everything is worse case in my head and I can't stop it.

I will then just start crying, I'm a failure, my partner is going to leave me, I can't do anything right, it must be because I'm a bad person etc

My logic side kicks in and my support network kicks my butt and I come out of the rut, only to fall straight back in to it.

I'm highly sensitive when people are "off" around me and I ask if they are ok and then become obsessive. I did it to my partner tonight and I could see him get shitty because I was hassling him but nothing was actually wrong.

I've vented a lot of "stuff" above but I guess it comes down to deep insecurities and feeling worthless. It's unfounded but so deeply ingrained in my personality I have no idea how to cope.

I've seen GPs and used works EAP program but they keep saying that it's situational because of the work stuff and I feel it's deeper than that. When I get dismissed it devalues my feelings and then I stop wanting to ask for help because I think I'm crazy.

I think I just need to stop typing now.

Stay safe forum people, hope you have loo paper!

[quirkywords]

Notsosilent

Welcome to the forum,

You are going through a very stressful time and no wonder you go from worst case scenario to being ok and logical and rational.

I know that being highly sensitive can be helpful but also makes us get upset easily.

Of course in one way it is situational but as you said you then transfer those negative thoughts to all parts of your life.

I am dealing with some adversity and am trying hard and have bad day and not so bad days.

I know I find it important to believe when people say positive things and to take all the support you can get.

Feel free to post here as much as you want. You are not alone.

Quirky