is it life? paranoia? something else?

[startingnew]

at this point in time im too scared to leave my house very often unless its to the shops or my new horse but even then im overly weary, maybe more than what i should be?

i feel like my mother and her bf have set up spies everywhere who trace my every move and when i go out they follow me around to see what im doing. i even worry there are spy cameras in the house.

its freaking me out.

it first started when they threw out my meds but now its getting worse since everytime i meantion anythign to do with drs, psychiatrists or psychologists they flip out at me i have new ad tablets now after all of mine were thrown out and left without anything and its making me even more paranoid that they will find them.i thought it would dissapear after the tension eased off but the tension hasnt eased and these fears of mine are seeming to become more real to me

[white knight]

Hi Starting new,

It would help us a lot to let us know your age, if you are at school, working ...

Thanks, looking forward to your reply.

Tony WK

[startingnew]

HI Tony

Im 20yrs old. Im studying plus im a full time carer and a primary carer for my two younger sisters

[startingnew]

ive also been diagnosed with severe anxiety and severe depression.

its really freaking me out. i dont get it

[white knight]

Ok, thanks for that info.

You really are a worker, all that responsibility.

What I can tell you is that under stress our minds can bevome quite untealustic in our thoughts. ..paranoia isnt a nice word but ok, that can be right.

IMO, such thought should be countered with evidence, no evidence means guilt. It would simply be unfair even cruel to claim surveillance is happening when it isnt.

Therapy would help you a lot as it did with me. Also relaxation exercises...they work!!

So regardless of your thoughts be fair and act on proof.

And seek out professional assistance.

And hey,your caring roles are magnificent.

Repost anytime.

Tony WK

[startingnew]

Hi Tony

i havent got any evidence to support me being watched but i cant seem to push it aside. I am under a huge amount of stress and having this added to the mix isnt helping the case.

Im currently seeing my gp twice a week and also a psychologist weekly as well. But thats in regards to something else. This is only recent ive started having this

[startingnew]

This started after a massive blowup in the house between me my mum her bf and my psychitrist

And i thought it would die down but it hasnt its actually gotten worse now

i dont feel i can trust anyone anymore 😞

i dont know where to turn or what im doing

i watch people walk past my house and im worried its someone checking in on me and its freaking me out!! i have my blinds, and curtain closed all the time and i never want to answer the phone or the door

[startingnew]

over the past few weeks this has been happening and i thought maybe it would die down once the tensions had died down but for me the tensions are still high

. for them ( mum and her bf) it doesnt seem to be affecting them but why would it really? they arent the ones who ahve to watch their every single move of every single second of every single day, nor do they ahve to worry about getting into trouble for going to a dr, psychiatrist or psychologist, and having to hide it becuse they are too scared to say anything about it. they saud they wanted to be involved but they dont want to be involved they jsut want to control everything but they cant. worried that their medications are going to be thrown out yet again.

its making me nervous, im never relaxed anywhere. not even in my own house.

[Sophie_M]

Hi startingnew, as this is a continuation of your other thread, we're going to close it off.  

When seeking support on the forums, we really encourage members to use one thread rather than starting new ones all the time.  It's really difficult for the community to keep up with your story if you have a lot of threads going at once, and you may find yourself having to repeat information if your story is spread across the forum - sometimes our members will be repeating themselves as well if it's an issue you've had previously, or as with Tony WK above don't have enough information to reply to you.

Help us to support you by keeping to one thread, even if you're returning here after a period of time.  There's a lot of value in seeing how someone's story evolves over time, and when facing a new crisis it's helpful to scroll back and see how you've coped previously.

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