Intrusive thoughts and anxiety

[Bluey_moon]

Hi

I have recently been diagnosed with GAD and obsessive thoughts.

I also have a paranoia i,m developing scizophrenia.

Lately my intrusive thoughts have been more like a voice (my voice). Like i'll my son i love him and suddenly i hear a thought, do you really, very clearly, like a voice, but my voice ( i think but i self doubt a lot). Or i'll be playing with my kids and i'll hear myself say, "you wont be doing that when you dead", but i dont say it out loud only in my head.

Is this normal, i have told my GP and a phyciatrist, but they think its just my thoughts? I'm so confused.

[Chris_B]

Hi Bluey moon, welcome to the forums. Intrusive thoughts have been discussed on the forums here quite a bit, please have a look through the threads below to find other members to reach out to:

[geoff]

dear Bluey moon, thanks so much for your comment, because it's a very hard decision whether you want to post or not, but when you do then that's great.

People who have OCD like I have had for 56 years could believe that they are schizophrenia, but no, however it's a typical thought only because we think about strange thoughts, but please rest assured your doctor and psychiatrist would know, and my brother always said that I was one, but he was wrong, and I'm not a schizophrenic.

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[geoff]

Sorry Bluey moon, something I did went wrong, but I'm back, and that's a great case of when I did something wrong I can get back to where I was.

Most people who have OCD suffer from intrusive thoughts, it's a symptom of this illness, so can I tell you about my intrusive thoughts, which I have mentioned many times to people who post comments on OCD.

I always wanted to hit my Mum, but I loved her so much and why would I want to do this, I can't answer that, but when she was admitted into a nursing home all of a sudden these thoughts stopped, because she was helpless in a wheelchair, and how could I now ever hurt her, because she was crying for my help, and I would do anything that she wanted.

People would think that I was schizophrenic, but no I wasn't, I just had OCD, just like you do.

It's a topic that I do love to talk about, because     

[geoff]

sorry again, I don't know what is happening to the site at the moment, as it keeps cutting me off.

 It's a topic I love to talk about, because people who post in about OCD are asking questions and some or many people feel as though they feel odd, but we're not, we have OCD which makes us feel and do things that may seem to be odd, but to us they are not.

It's no different than someone who writes with their left hand, while others write with their right hand, and neither should feel out of place. Geoff.

[Bluey_moon]

Thank you Geoff for sharing your story with me! 

It is indeed very hard to decide to share your story with people. 

I am fortunate that I have an amazing husband who is supportive and great friends I trust! 

I love my children a lot, and my fears stem from my fear of something happening to them. 

I see my psycologist tomorrow, so I will let you know how I go! 

Take care Geoff! 

[Bluey_moon]

Thank you for your advice, I will definately look at those threads! 

[Bluey_moon]

It's funny isn't it, I swear some days I'm crazy, and I've read so much about schizophrenia, I nearly convince myself I have all the symptoms (I also did that about MS).