Good Morning,
I hope you're doing okay today, and if not, know that that's okay too! This is something I have to remind myself as well when feel overwhelmed and anxious. I think it is a natural human response to feel sad and unsettled when saying goodbye to loved ones for what may be a long time. That shows how much connection there is and how valuable these relationships are to you. Sadness is the right feeling sometimes.
Flight anxiety is also very common. I know several people (some very well) who avoid flying if possible. Mix in the sadness you are feeling and that's a pretty heady cocktail of difficult feelings. I know this maelstrom of feelings too, and it's really tough. Is there anyone you can share your feelings with at this time? Even via text can be useful to unburden yourself and benefit from some moral support.
I tell myself that my first job in life is to look after myself. Do what you know will help you manage your travel today, and remember that the feelings you are having are natural, human feelings that make sense in your situation.
Go well,
Annas
