HELP: Anxiety+Panic Attacks+Depression - Work+study+Life

[ImLost]

October last year I was officially diagnosed with: Anxiety Disorder, Panic Attacks and Depression. Over the last few months I have been handed from place to place. One said "We can't help you." I am still trying to find a psychologist that I can go to as my current isn't working out. I'm on my 4th medication *fingers crossed*.

I am hoping I am not alone in this situation. I am starting to feel like a burden on my family (currently living with), my partner and friends.

I am currently having to take a few months off work due to it being a large trigger. Even thinking about heading into work sends me spiralling down. I also study part-time which I have not attended in weeks due to not feeling up to it. I've managed to keep up with the work online hoping to finish the course as I am interested in the topics.

I'm hoping someone has had a similar experience. After talking with my partner and family + doctor and Psychologist I have been thinking about leaving my work to spend some time to work on my health. I really would like to get myself at a level where I could go to UNI and complete a degree in something I really enjoy.

I'm scare about how to do this, my workplace is like gossip central. From the moment I walk in I feel like they all watch me like hawks. I don't think many of them understand what I'm going through and think it's like a cold that will "Go away soon" and I'll be back to normal.

Does anyone else feel like they are missing parts of them selves? I always loved photography, reading books and doing arts and crafts but I feel like all my creativity is gone. I have a hard time sitting still long enough to enjoy a book or trying to create pictures that I imagine.

I know I need help but every time I try I either feel like a burden or I get passed around a system that doesn't know what to do with me.

[YellowPoppy]

Hi ImLost,
If this is your first time posting, welcome.

I can relate to feeling like a burden on my support system. Especially when you're doing all the right things to get well.

I'm sorry your psychologist isn't working out and I know sometimes it can take time to find someone you click with. I have my first appointment with a new pysch on Wednesday.

If you can complete the course online and your attendance isn't affected than that's awesome.

If you feel like work is just too much right now and you obviously have family and friends who understand, or are at least supportive of your decisions then I think you should take gthe oppurtunity to take some time off. But as best as you can go through a pros and cons of that before you decide anything.

At the moment I don't have the ability to do tunings I used to love. I'm just trying to maintain the daily living tasks.

I know it's crap being put through the system but try and stick it out or find a new gp.

Hope this helps and I'm sorry you're going through this.
Feel better soon
YellowPoppy