Hi Ambibella, welcome
This is a good case for some therapy- why? because you are showing symptoms I had 28 years ago. I had severe anxiety and panic attacks at work. So bad they initially thought I had a heart attack. Thankfully not.
I was given medication and had an occupational therapist for 12 months. He taught me a few things that were life changing. Initially I wasn't ken, thought it was all a waste of time...it wasn't.
He taught me to question myself if I was being realistic. Our imagination through worry can send our minds all over the place. eg Asking yourself if you are a good mum when clearly you are then ask yourself if your thoughts are in your head or real. Then he taught me relaxation techniques that I still do to this day even though my anxiety has gone away. Muscle tensioning exercises is the best most effective way to learn to relax. Google it or attend a relaxation class to learn them. You can do it prior to sleeping and you'll sleep better (crutial for recovery).
Be prepared for a long haul. It isn't an easy fix. Attend your GP and ...you don't need to drink alcohol or much of it to enjoy life.
Tony WK
