Crying doesn’t come easy anymore

[PsychedelicFur]

Hello all. PsychedelicFur here. Hope you are all well.

Crying does not come easy to me anymore. After starting my new antidepressants about four or so months ago - crying has become extremely difficult for me. I have always been a highly emotional person and I have always been very much in touch with my inner thoughts and feelings. And it makes me really upset because now I find it difficult to release any sad or intrusive thoughts through tears. And recently, I have heard that this is a side affect of anxiety medication.

I feel extremely numb. And it’s bothering me. Because I want to cry. I want to be able to let out my emotions in a healthy way. Because after I cried I would ALWAYS feel cleansed and refreshed. It was as though I was letting out the bad toxins from my body. And now it doesn’t come easy to me anymore. I have to sort of force it, in a way.

PF.

[white knight]

Hi PF

One of my illnesses is dysthymia and a symptom is high emotion and lots of crying. With meds that has all dried up. I also can only write my deep emotional poetry when in a highly emotional state- gone mostly now.

So I understand. It's as if you've lost a place you used to go for mental repair.

I don't see it as a negative overall though, after all it's an opportunity to enter some normality. But what about what we've lost? Well, I do listen to my beloved prem rawat maharaji on YouTube especially "sunset" and "appreciation". Those sorts of videos put me in a similar place I'd lost.

I think it's better to find the positives of not crying but it's hard.

TonyWK

[mmMekitty]

Hi PF,

I have an opposite feeling about crying. For me, it feels awful,especially the physical sensations, & recovery.

For you, crying gives you much relief, & as you say, cleansing & since it is a problem for you to not cry, I wonder if reducing the dose of your meds would be something worth talking to your GP or Psych about. I'm not sure, not being a health care worker or anything, but I do know, if this appeals to you, please check with your GP or Psych about i before doing anything.

It's important to have emotional responses to things that happen. These emotions are what defines us as human, & what makes empathy & compassion available to us, motivating us to care & to help, & towards friendships, & life goals, all sorts of things.

Like everything, though, it'snot healthy to have either too little or too much emotional response to the world around you. Too much & you over react & feel overwhelmed & cannot function . Under react & you feel no connection, as if separate from everything & everyone, including yourself, & may simply begin to not care.

Somewhere in the middle, there's a place where you feel & react to those feelings, & can empathise, & can grow, & can better understand yourself & others, & still be able to get up, go out, talk with people, work & play, watch/listen to media, feeling more like you are a part of everything in the world.

What you describe sounds very isolating, to me. Like I used to feel, as if I moved about in a bubble, or as a bug stuck in amber, so disconnected, I (believed)I felt nothing.

Then I had the opposite extreme & could not cope with the swirl of emotions, couldseem only able to cry no matter what the emotion. I was all at sea, & not able to surface.

But now, I have learned about my emotions,& even use them like White Knight, in my writing,; redirecting them to my words. I feel much more balanced now, with moments of each extreme, but not out of my control like before.

I hope my wandering through this subject is helpful.

All my best,❤️❤️❤️

mmMekitty