Haven't been on BB for a while but really 'suffering' the last month. Always have depression but last couple of days feeling really anxious. Making me feel sick and spaced and weird. I am sure it is the time of year. I don't have family and i don't 'do' Christmas and normally i am absolutely okay with that but this year i can just feel it kind of looming. Friends always invite me to their house but i would never do that as i would feel like an intruder (regardless of the fact they are genuine and definitely wouldn't view me as that). Plus when i force myself to go out i like to go by myself so if i feel like i am about to 'crash and burn' that i can leave without affecting anybody else. There it is, todays state of mind!
I was listening to a podcast recently and they were saying that some people like to the hosts and others do not. Not as literal as that. Me... I don't like to host. The fact your friends invite you is a positive and they value your company. Of course, they don't know your thoughts about that. Now jumping to the conclusion of 'crashing and burning' is something I would do as well in terms of the going to the negative thoughts. But... what if that did not happen? The last time you went out with your friends, did you crash and burn then?
Hi smallwolf. I try to force myself out even when i don't really feel like it. I go to the local rsl and have one or two champagnes. One day i was feeling really bad and when i am like that i try and force myself out even more so that the distraction helps me not focus on the rubbish that is on repeat loop in my head. Most of the time i succeed in keeping my actress face on but there has been a couple of occasions where i have walked in and then burst into tears and walked out again and felt like a total idiot. Unfortunately it does happen and then i feel dreadful because i have made others uncomfortable.
Im sorry to hear that you have been struggling the last month.
I understand anxiety can be really difficult to deal with it has many symptoms attached to it.
Have you thought about seeing your gp and discussing how you have been feeling?
Thats really nice of your friends to invite you over I’m sure they don’t see you as an intruder and would genuinely love you to come over… as you said…… maybe go along..
