Bad anxiety day

[_allovertheplace]

Hi all,

I haven’t posted here for a number of years but here I am today. I don’t want to burden those around me so I thought I would put my feelings here almost like a journal.

I’m 31, diagnosed depression and generalised anxiety, medicated and previously seen psychs etc. I also have a psych degree so I know all about CBT and other therapies and use them for myself very often.

My mental health is an everyday battle and for whatever reason, today I am feeling all sorts of dread. Super irritable and annoyed with everyone, generally anxious and low. I have my first covid vax dose in 2 days time and I’m one of the last people I know being vaxxed. Not from a lack of trying, as I wanted desperately to go somewhere local and was just impossible for the longest time. So I think I have a fear of being left out of socialising with my loved ones until I have the second dose and I’m worried about what it’ll do to my mental state. I realise I’m a bit all over the place with this post and I don’t know what I expect people to say. I just needed to get it out

[HappyHelper88]

Hi _allovertheplace Thankyou for your post and welcome to the forum

Im so grateful to have you reach out to our community this morning and so sorry to hear everything you have going on at the moment. Times like this can definitely get overwhelming .
I dont think you would be a burden anyone people close by to you would always want to here whats going on

Thats awesome that you have a Psych degree and are able to use your knowledge on yourself
Mental health is a daily battle for some , a battle that you can win just keep getting through each day
Atleast you will be vaccinated and will be able to see your loved ones shortly.
From my understanding you have to wait 21 days between doses which is a longer time but after that you will be able to join in
You may need to try and keep busy with actvities you enjoy at home i know its easier said then done but you have alot to look forward too once you have recieved double dose

Thankyou for getting it out and If you want to talk this through with a Beyond Blue counsellor, we’re on 1300 22 4636 or you can reach us on webchat here, please reach out at any time and our community is here for you also

I hope this helps

[Adalaide]

Hi!

Let me start off by saying: sharing your feelings on here is such an incredible way to start healing from this feeling.

Having the background in psychology is such a bonus as it can help you identify when what you are feeling is valid and when it is not.

I truly feel for you with the situation with the vaccines - it is such a tough situation when you are trying but it just feels like it isn’t working. Feeling isolated from friends and family definitely would be difficult. A method to help mediate this feeling could be to host Skype (or zoom/FaceTime) game nights or daily chats with those who you are close with where you can all work on a hobby together. This could be painting, dancing or anything else that you can agree on. You can even do a rotation where each day one person comes up with an idea for a new hobby every time to try out.

I hope this helps and please take care of yourself!

[Banksy92]

Welcome back to the forums _allovertheplace,

It's definitely understandable, how you're feeling - I've had a similar experience. Trying to get both your vaccines in time to get out of lockdown as soon as possible can cause so much anxiety! No one wants to miss out, we've all waited so long for our freedoms back.

It's really great to hear you've got a set of tools under your belt from study and working with psychologists to support yourself during these times. I'm sure you know how important these are to cope when things get rough. Have you considered revisiting your psych to touch base about how you're feeling?

I agree with HappyHelper, I don't think reaching out to loved ones about your mental health would be a burden either. I'm sure they'd be happy to chat. If you can arrange a few more things to keep yourself busy and in touch with friends/family while you wait for your second dose it might boost your spirits. Having things to look forward to is a great help. Like Adalaide says, if you get creative it can make a big difference.

Hang in there.