Anxiety eating away at me

[Rainbowpolly]

Hi

I have been suffering with alot of Panic Attacks, Anxiety, Insomnia alot in the last 2 years, but the last 4 weeks have exploded for me.

I lost my best mate and yes he was a dog, I know some might not think this is important he had a 18 month battle with Cancer and just like humans I took care of him, it was very hard on me. Then I was told that my work hours will be reduced to 1/2 of what I used to do, I know others have lost alot more but this has meant I'm at home now with my thoughts alot more, I dont have an overly supportive partner and my kids are older and take care of themselves so Im not mummy to any babies. To compond my anxiety I have a friend who obsessively sends me alot of information on Covid Vaccines and the negitive affects it has aswell as alot of other Covid related video and media, this has now made me very anxious about getting the vaccine and the Panic Attacks are coming daily and sometimes 2 or 3 times, I don't sleep without the aid of over the counter medication as my Dr won't give me anything alse, I dont mind this, and I barely eat because of all this to add another level I fell walking, I do this to clear my head, and now im in a moonboot for 4 to 6 weeks, which means I cannot walk to zone out. I feel like its a hopeless and have lost all interest in everything I used to love cooking and took pride in my appearance and my home now I just don't care, I'm angry scared and so very confused and the panic attacks, lack of sleep, stress headaches and anixety it taking its toll on my friendships and relationships with most people around me....

Thank you for reading my ridiculously long post im so sorry it is so long....

[Petal22]

Hi Rainbowpolly,

I understand it feels unfair when others try to push their beliefs onto us, just remember you can install your own beliefs and stay in your own lane you can choose to do this. 🙏

I understand when you find your self thinking still about these things just keep turning your attention to something else in the present moment.

Or you could choose to challenge the thoughts…….. we don’t really know who writes that stuff anyway so why give it our attention?

[Rainbowpolly]

Petal22

I 100% agree with what you are saying, I suppose its the way I'm just vulnerable at the moment, and the person who I have known for the longest in my life and trusted the most was the one who has pushed this on me...I think it hurts more because of that and I wanted to be a good friend and understand her side however that sure backfired on me and it worked it way into my head and turned from supporting my friend even though I thought she was completely bonkers with some of the beliefs she was having about it all to me then doubting myself and starting to take notice of it.

I am focusing more on things that take my mind off Covid, no news, limitig Social Media, I unfortunately have had to snooze many people, and I'm no longer reading anything negative. I have been trying to get an appointment with my Psychologist within the next week before I get my 1st Vaccination.

I'm trying some Spotify Meditation to see if that can help, and still having and over the counter sleep aid I just want to be back to myself again..... 😥😥

[Petal22]

I understand it’s difficult when our anxiety is overwhelming us… just hang in there….

All the best with your next phycologist appointment.

If you feel you would like to talk to someone please give our friendly councillors a call 1300 22 4636.

[Rainbowpolly]

Thank you once again,

I'm hanging in there its hard and panic attacks are really playing havoc with me, I have tried to get an appointment with my Psychologist but hes booked but ive gone on cancellation list so fingers crossed, I am going call the hotline today.

[Petal22]

That’s ok Rainbowpolly,

That’s great your hanging in there….

Thats also great that you are going to call the BB hotline.

Practice slowing down your breathing i understand panic attacks are difficult….

If you can’t get in to see your psychologist you could see your gp just for someone to talk to if you need…

Maybe try to go outside for a walk and practice being mindful.

Things will get better