Dear amr2611~
Welcome here to the Forum, I think I understand what you are going though but I don't know if it is like myself, with a more general anxiety condition -or something else, after all I'm no doctor.
Some things have to be 'fixated' on, if the work is intrinsically very important and maybe others depend on it on it, then it might it might have to have priority. Even so it can go too far.
I used to do a lot of marking of assignments, and it was most important my marking was fair and correct -and consistent across everyone. So it was important and I'd have to concentrate. This did not mean I did not take breaks, do other things and try to maintain a balance. That actually made marking better.
If I'd tried to do the lot in one go my performance, and marking, would have been poor, as would my state when I finished.
I'm trying to say that normally, even with important things there has to be a balance.
From the sound of it, unless there was an immediate threat to your phone -like you had to return it if it had been borrowed, then dumping everything in one go on your laptop was something you could take in stages, but you kept going, to the detriment of your studies. Your priorities were skewed, not appropriate to the task.
I found as my anxiety worsened I became more one-eyed on particular tasks, insisting on perfection while letting other things go by undone, and like you not stopping until I'd completed the task. This also made me reluctant to start doing things as I'd know it needed 'perfection' and I was probably not going to be able to achieve it.
I have a lot more perspective now and tend to approach things more sensibly. This was due to getting competent medical help, which diagnosed me with what turned out to be an anxiety condition and a couple of other things. My improvement started from then.
Can I suggest you book a long appointment with your GP and say what has been happening to you and ask for a professional diagnosis, then see where that takes you? If you think trying to explain face-to-face might be too difficult, take a couple of days to write everything down first in point form, that way you have time to get it right and not forget anything. Then share the paper. (The list does NOT have to be perfect)
Does this sound a reasonable approach?
Croix
