Hi guys, more than anything I'm probably looking for support and people to relate to more than answers.
I've been around these parts but have never posted, so I'm looking forward to getting more involved.
I was diagnosed with Generalized Anxiety Disorder and mild depression when I was 16 by a GP, and after being on and off with various psychologists and medications for a few years (I'm nearly 22) I decided to commit to a new psychologist at uni, who I am very pleased with. She thinks I might have ADHD, has spoken to my parents, and is trying to discern whether I may have ADHD or bipolar. The prospect of a new diagnosis is terrifying me.
The reason I went to see a psychologist again is because I can't get through uni, I've completely lost all motivation, focus, creativity, any form of drive, but I'm not necessarily all that sad. I think the medication may be having an effect on that; making me feel flat and completely blocking out my ability to even react to stressful situations. I'm starting to think the only times I'm genuinely very happy is when I'm drinking with friends.... That's probably an issue.
Not being able to complete tasks has had a huge effect on my life, I've started feeling pretty hopeless, as if time is running out and I've wasted my life. Kind of like life keeps moving and I'm just going through the motions to scrape through, being tripped up but having just enough energy to stay upright and look normal, but nothing more than that. I have huge goals that will never come to fruition if I can't commit myself but I can't see a change in myself coming. It's scary.
Anyone else feeling something similar or have some pearls of wisdom?
